WHiTNEY (you_said_4ever) wrote, @ 2004-07-08 15:10:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	the sound of my tears..

SUMMER KEEPS GETTiN W0RSE! WEN D0ES THE FUN PART 'KiCK iN' ?
well...i have no idea whats goin on wit me n sean anymore. and i had a huge fight with my mom, the biggest one we ever had...but thats all settled [thank god] one thing off my mind. brian [my ex bf] is calling me now n wants to chill all of a sudden, which is great i love em, hes like my bro but he likes me in 'that way' n i jus dont feel the same anymore. and i think he might be tryin to break me n sean up .. and u kno thats just fantastic! [sarcasm, us so ya kno] i used to love ex boyfriends, well most of mine. because after we go out were usually on really good terms and i have an even better relationship with them. i duno, ex boyfriends were wonderful before this crazy one decided to ruin somethin i was jus startin to 'love' ....maybe. so brian tells me all this shit sean 'supposedly' said to him wen sean called amanda's cell n brian picked it up, wanting to have a lil chat wit this boyfriend of mine. soo supposedly sean started a rumor that i well, did stuff with him...other than gettin wit him....and that he said he likes amanda. which u kno, is grreat! i have a wonderful life, everyone i trust always slaps me in the face afterwards! so i have this ex bf who i knew for over a year n knows me inside-out and we trust eachother completely telling me that my current bf is shit and that hes liein and he really did say all this shit and then i have this bf who i only knew for a short while, is known to be a player/cheater but tells me he loves me n wants to marry me, blah, blah..who the fuck do i believe? amanda's tryin to figure it out too but she says brian is jealous and is trying ANYTHiNG to get me bak/break me n sean up. maybe thats true...or maybe hes tryin to save me from gettin hurt by sean ..i really duno wat to do or who to trust anymore. i really gotta stop trustin evry1 way too much. well w/e im goin ......