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Cailin (xxsicrockbabyxx) wrote,
@ 2004-01-30 16:31:00
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    Current mood: crushed

    it only hurts more wen it ends
    dillon broke up with me... he promised me he wouldnt hurt me he 'needs space'.. how could he do this to me...?? i loved him more than jon and hes treated me better than jon wen he told me he wanted to break up but sum how it hurts 10000000000000000000000000000x's more..i fucking trusted him with all my heart, my life, my love, my virginity!!!! i always get heartbroken.....y me???????? i fucking HHHAAATTTEEE it. i almost blacked out wen he told me cuz i had an axiety attack and i couldnt breathe... he says he broke up w/ me cuz of the distance but i dunno... he betrayed my trust hurt me worse than jon....if it wasnt for jen and nate i would have definatly done something really stupid to myself... looks like im gonna be crying myself to sleep for a month just like last time sum1 broke my heart... :( looks like im not gonna b happy either.. oh god and everything reminds me of him....i wear the sweatshirt that he gave me everyday, i sleep with his shirt because it smells like him and i love(d) the way he smell(ed)s, i keep 2 pictures of us hugging on the beach in my wallet. oh jesus please guys i need help... i never in my worst nightmares did think we would brake up... i was in love with him.. HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!!!????????????????? oh man i wanna die.... i didnt think this would happen..its all my fault.....i should die......

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