Cassie (xsynthetickiss) wrote, @ 2004-05-04 21:49:00

Current mood:	sad
Current music:	faggot >> msi

hi
i didnt go to school today and im beginning to hate school, i still have so much makeup work... and i just.. i dunno. i guess i don't care about school anymore, i don't know why. it's not the school part, its the people. i hate how everyones so mean, and everyone makes fun of you. and everyone stares you down, and looks at you funny, and makes you feel out of place. i hate it. i don't want to go back, but my mothers forcing me too. atleast tomarrows.. wednesday. and then theres only 2 more days until the weekend. thank god, and then a few more weeks until summer.. 2 months of nothing. i'm so entirely happy, i could scream. i'm just so upset, at christine, at everyone for the most part. i told my mom i hate school. everyones asking me whats wrong, i'm so upset. christine treats me like i'm the biggest outcast, and don't even deserve to talk to her. she can go on ahead and be friends with traci, and be friends with kelsey. let them hurt her, i am a good friend. i never betray anyone, if i do, they can see in my eyes that it hurts me worse than it hurts them. just, my main goal right now is to get through this year of school. i cannot quit. it's not an option. i have to get through this, even though i hate it so much. it's only 19 days, 152 hours, something like that, of actual school. and thats including lunch. so.. i guess it's not all that bad. but then i have 3 more years left. i am not up for this. just i need to keep telling myself this: it will all be ok, you are fine, you are not depressed, you are not sad, you don't have any hate for anyone. i'm taking my anger out on everyone i meet. i am being a bitch. i am so mean to everyone. this isn't me. who am i anyway?

	Kass-E nazipunker 2004-05-05 17:44 (link)
	I feel the same yah know? I can understand what you're going through. I realized I don't even know who my friends are anymore. I also hate school, my grades are going down the tube also. I wish if I was an outcast, what the fuck, I mean I won't know ½ the people I know now in 10 years. But yeah if you need someone to talk to then don't forget I'm here. <3 you Kass-E. (Reply to this) (Thread)