KT (xstarlesseyesx) wrote, @ 2004-08-10 00:30:00

Current mood:	sick
Current music:	the horrible silence of me and my shattering pride...

i dont think i like this...
well i went to my allergist appointment today and my mom woke me up at 1030 for that!! god thats too early...and then she bought me mc donalds coz all the sudden i had the biggest craving for chicken but u can never have enough chicken!! preach that lol. and then i came home layed around then went outside with kerin and at some point during those 6 hours we were out we chilled with shanay taja and other ppl and ppl.

but like always my days are never good so with everything alright that happens during my days theres always something bad to back it up....

i heard some unpleasent things from a somewhat unpleasent person today. i will now refer to ppl as person 1 person 2 and person 3 so things dont get too complicated....now as much as i could possibly believe this really bad truth from person 1, i cant seem to let myself do so. it really just doesnt make any sense to me. this person (person 1) has no reason to lie to me but the things they said just sounded so outrageous. me being the person i am i know i these days u cant ever really trust anyone..especially someone u dont know. if what im hearing is in fact true well then its a fucking shame coz that person (person 3) is a HOT MESS no wait they r a MOTHERFUCKIN HOT MESS!!! i dont think i cant stress that enough. i dont want to be involved with this person (person 2) if what i heard is true coz thats sooo nasty. it is degrading and thats horrible. if person 2 doesnt mind being a degration to their generation well then more power to them but it really is a got damn shame coz they can do sooo much better than that (keyword THAT refering to person 2). HAHAHAHA im so mean but o well get over it

maybee person 1 made person 2 get somewhat involved may i say with person 3 as a whole 'if u dont then i will fire u and u will be jobless' but this is only what i want to be true. i want to think thats the way its going down but it probably isnt going down like that at all.

everytime i play it over in my mind it becomes more and more gut wrenching. damn im gonna get sick to my stomach at this rate....

its just too gross...i know that im not a great person inside or out but holy hell if u stoop that low (to person 3) i question whether i could ever truely respect u as a person (person 2)

so now all i can do is wonder...do i even care if person 2 is degrading themselves? and what makes person 3 better than me? this better not be some sick joke coz if so im not laughing. i swear im about to choke. this world makes me soo fucking sick i cant stand it anymore.....

mannn i3rokenrzrbldes 2004-08-10 15:25 (link)

wow.. is it just me or does it sound like drama... i am sure everyone appreciates the whole "nonconfusing" way of person 1, person 2, and person 3, but i dont know these persons so i am completely..........lost. but its okay.. hmm about the last entry you had.....omg i missed the michael jackson movie too......... man i was madd... i want it to come on... blah... well anyway .. thats all for now and i am going now to update my splendid journal... (Reply to this) (Thread)