Willa Ford (xo_willa) wrote, @ 2003-08-28 22:06:00

For Ashton
*sits down at my desk with a pen in hand looking down at the pad of paper. sighs and begins writing*

Ashton-
I don't even know if this will make sense, I am just going to write as it comes. All of us have been in a place in our lives where the decisions we make are drastic and as soon as we've done it we wish we could take it back. It doesnt matter. You can't take it back, but you can learn from it. You can look around you and see what the result of that was and know what to do next. In the end, those people who love you will still be there even after you make the worst decision of your life. Your family loves you. Your wife would do anything for you. You have two beautiful daughters and a baby on the way. They look up to you. They love you no matter what. To them, you are the most incredible man in the world. You have so many friends who love you. I love you. Ash you are my bestfriend. I can tell you anything and I know you wont judge me. I want you to know that you can tell me anything, I dont care what it is and I'm not going to judge you. I will just be there for you. I don't know what I would do if i lost you. You are such a good friend to me. You always show up at just the right time. Who gives a shit what anyone else thinks about you. Its not important. Your family loves you. It doesnt fucking matter about all that other shit anymore. All that matters is you, jen, and your babies. Thats all. Nothing else.

*pauses for a moment looking down at the paper sighing*

I dont know what else to say sweetie except i love you along with so many other people and all we want is for you to be ok. no matter how long or what it takes. all you have to do is ask and we'll be there for you. i promise. no matter where i am, or what i'm doing, i will be there for my best friend.
love,
mandah

p.s. i need you around. you're the only person who can make my son throw up on three people at one time :)

*reads it over and puts it in an envelope, seals it, and writes his name on the outside then drives over to ashton and jens putting the letter under the windshield wiper of his car then drives away*

_ashton__ 2003-08-29 02:12 (link)

-he sighs while reading the note over and over and over, he picks up the house phone and dials your number getting the voicemail- Will...god you are so amazing, thank you for that note..honestly thank you. When people were telling me how stupid my mistake was, it was just in one ear out the other, but when you and jen say it to me..-he shakes his head- it definetly hits home. thank you so much for being there for me. I love you my sweet willa willa..my best friend, my partner in crime, the one i look to when our spouses are insanely hyper together, the gymboree buddy, and puke cleaning buddy -he laughs- i love you willa...always and forever, cause ya know when christopher and lola get married, we're gunna be the old people sitting on the porch in our rocking chairs -he sighs and runs his fingers over the gash wincing lightly- i need you willa.. -he sighs and clicks end on the phone- (Reply to this) (Thread)

	xo_willa 2003-08-29 02:36 (link)
	*runs downstairs picking up the phone just as you hang up* damnit. *pushes the play button on the answering machine listening to you wipes a few stray tears off my cheeks hearing your voice. sighs talking to myself* ashton. *picks up the phone and calls you back, hanging up when the phone goes straight to voice mail* i'll call him tomorrow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)