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Anthony Mariano (xcrazymx) wrote,
@ 2003-11-21 16:28:00
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    It starts...


    Yeah, so I'm finally doing this. I'm not even sure if people still do live journals, but I'm THAT bored right now. I'm sitting here at work checking my e-mail every half hour out of boredom, so I'm trying to find other ways to kill some time. Yeah, so we'll see how long this lasts. Anyway, I guess I should start with how my life is right now. I guess it's okay overall. I just wish it was moving in the direction I would like it to. Those that know me, know that music is my passion and at this time I don't feel like I'm doing anything with it. I've got a plan, but it keeps getting delayed and I'm finding it very frustrating. After school is over, time starts to move so goddam fast and I'm still having a problem grasping that. I feel like I'm doing nothing with my life except working and somehow I'm still poor. I feel like such a waste most of the time.


    Now comes the real fun- my friends. I love my friends... in fact, I love most people that I don't even know. I just wish we could all get along at the same time. There is so much drama with my friends, it's ridiculous. I get so tired of it. It goes back and forth almost every day. Exton Diner used to be so much fun, before I started mixing friends. If I had to do it all over, I would never have done that. It was going fine for a while, to the point where we would spend all of our free time together. I could always count on someone being at the diner to talk to. Now everything has fallen apart so badly, it hardly seems worth it. I really have no one else to blame but myself for all of this.


    Work is going well, but it's just not interesting me anymore. It's easy and when it's slow, I can just waste away on the internet, like I'm doing now. I just would rather be spending my time doing something worthwile. Sam Goody is much better now that it's a part-time job. It's funny how much of a difference that it actually makes. I'm just dreading next month. The mall stays open til 11:00 and I'll be there til 1:00 with work at 8:30 the next morning. I've actually been doing much better overall getting to sleep earlier. I go to bed around 1:00 now, instead of 3:00. I try and set good habits and this is what happens.


    Again, my passion is music. I just can't wait til I can actually start my project. I just need to keep saving, which is getting harder with Christmas next month. I can only pray it's gonna be worth it. If this fails, I have no other options.

    Currently listening to...

    Ministry's Greatest Hits

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don't blame yourself
2003-11-29 21:14 (link)
don't blame yourself for you frineds not getting along youe know who the real person to blame is i'm just not going to drop any names. i love you anthony

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2003-11-30 02:03 (link)
welcome to my world...the real magic happens on


call me more often and we'll start another diner revolution.

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2003-12-02 21:34 (link)
i thought for a second that this was ian's sn, i had to do a doubletake. why would ian look for magic in jesse's LJ??

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