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I hate the waiting period
so ...i don't start working until tuesday..which is wack cause it means i won't get payed till the weekend after my birthday....and it's wack cause i have nothing to do during the passing days...i'm glad it's saturday night already....hopefully time will be good to me and pass by quickly......
as the days roll by and i find myself hanging out with my ol homies and some new ones i realize more and more that i'm not sure about anyhting in my life right now...matter fact the only thing i am sure about is that i'm not sure about anything...lol...
i found myself in a coversation lat night that i would have rather been a spectator in ....
Peanut, a homie from the pj's out here in harlem, bought a couple of bottles, some champagne, alize and some other shit i'm not gonna even try to spell cause i'm not an alki (alcoholic) and i don't know much about liqs (alcohol)...
as we stared to get tipsy...
Peanut, my man Rose, my other mans Bolo, his girl ummm, sorry ya'll i forgot her name, but we'llcall her X for the sake of the story, and her friend...her hot lil friend i might add Laneek...
our conversation starts to get a bit deeper....
no longer are we talking about the drama in each others lives...
and boy do Black/ HIspanic folk have some drama....
or the newest movies and clubs we wanted to hit up...
or where we planned to be in the next year or two...it's ill how people who live in the ghetto have more short term goals than compared to white folks and their "where will u be in ten years" type questions...
when i suggested that to my boy Nut he replied with the bittersweet honesty of aBlack man in the hood that,
"Black folks in da ghetto feel like they r on a time card,
1) who wants to stay in the ghetto, filled with rats and roaches and
2) our life expectancy here is shorter so our time period to achieve goals is shorter."
Dayum, ain't that the truth!!
well while we were startin to slip closer to intoxication... sittin by one of the jungle gyms for the kids...we heard one of the older boys in the group shout out, "well what about having sex with a man."
as the group picked up on thier conversation... the cute lil friend of x, Laneek, said well how do ya'll feel about te gay and lesbian community and the idea of legalizing same sex marriages..
in true "Nutty" form, Peanut said, "well, ya'll KNOW i don't mind me some freaky bisexual bitches gettin down and dirty but i don't get why any nigga who call himself a man would want another nigga stickin his piece all in his ass."
Rose chimed in that he didn't understand gay men either, "i mean bitches be complainin that gettin it up da ass hurt so why do niggas actually like that shyt so much. what the fuck wrong with dem."
and Bolo added, "for real dog, that's why niggas be homophobic cause they be swearin them niggas is crazy. personally i don't giva a fuck what eva you do is your business but i hate when gay niggas be tryin to talk tome."
well, before they started believing all the bullshit that they were saying i came in....
" well Nut we all know u's a freak and would love as many women as u could possible get in one room without they bein' a cat fight.....but as for the whole gettin it up the ass thang...let me enlighten ya'll," Laneek giggled loudly and leaned in closer towards the group.
i explained to them how a man's prostate gland is at the end of the rectum canal and that when the prostate gland is stimulated a man cumms...
if any one has ever seen road trip, the movie, there's a seen there which shows one of the dudes goin to a sperm bank and because he thinks he has a chance with the nurse he tells her he needs some assistance to help him arrive....
well, she smacks on a pair of latex gloves and asks him to drop his draws...
he does in a heat of excitement cause he thinks she's gona jerk him off and as he stands up with his pants now strategically placed around his ankles, she grabs him and turns him around so that his back is towards her...
he laughs and says, "i love it when a woman takes control and does someting different," as she slowly guides his back down so that he is slightly leaning over the table in the office...
in the movie they don't show u how they ask the men to hold their cup under their penis or how they grease up their latex fingers ...but they do show.....
the woman sticking her fingers in his ass and him yelling in satisfaction and then shuddering as if he'd just cumm
i tell the group that this is why men like men because yes the "bottom" guy is still getting satisfied..and i guess that it must feel hella good to be cumming without even bein' inside no one, but rather with someone bein' inside you.
my boys shake their heads while chiming in that they still think it's wierd, and Laneek, lil miss cute thang asks me but so what about girls...
i laugh and say what about umm... if u eva been with a man that wants to please his partna' you should have already experienced what gettin ya pussy eatin out feels like...i laugh some more ...but if you've neva' been with a woman you may neva know what it feels like to be eatin out right without no body fallin asleep on you... at this my boys grunt and take bigger swigs of their drinks while X and Laneek laugh they asses off....
Laneek points out that i seem to kow alot about the subject...i laugh and say, "if you're askin' me if i'm battin fo' the home team' my answer is yes. i'm bisexual but bcause i've explored the realm of men so much i'm really lookin more to be with a woman right now."
she smiles brightly at me, while my boys poke each other in the ribs and gigle like a bunch of old ladies after hearing the latest gossip...
i laugh at them as i continue to light the blunt i've been rolling while enlightening my homies from da hood...lol
Laneek comes out of left field and says, " wel ldo youfuck wth girls who have kids cause umm...well..i've got and eight year old lil' girl...but umm i think i like you."
at this the group goes into a wild ring of laughter and oh my gods and dayum Laneeks....
i take a few puffs on the el while things settle down.
Laneek has neva taken her eyes from me...
she's watchin' me for a reaction....
it takes Nut and Rose a minute to settle down and i use this to my advantage i ask X for a pen nd piece of paper and write down Laneeks number...
when they finally settle downi say to Laneek well what we can do is ...
i can take u out ...we'll get a bite to eat ..spend a lil time gettin to know one another...and then we will go out to a gay club and if you really like the life if u really are feelin it then we'll go from there.....
she smiles brighter than sh has all day and says, "aight, thas was up!"
we continue to get intoxicated.....
fast forward to today...
me and Laneek spend some time on the phone....she's cool but i think not for me...she likes to chill on the street alot...i'm mre of a home-body...hand=gin ot outside gettin drunk and smoked out is a rare thing for me..it's happenin now cause i don't have my own crib to chill in and cause i an't got shit to do till i start workin...but i'm still gonna take her out ...
and we'll stay friends through her transition and/ or experimentation.....
well, alot more happened last night....
like me gettin locked out of my best friends crib
and today bein her birthday and her not commin home yet....
she'd out with her ex girl looks like they might be gettin back together...it's funny how things have a way of workin themselves out andhow the universe seems to answer questions by taking action.....
cause i was recently confused about my best friend wondering if i should make teh moves on her...
i'm happy i didn't cause then i would have been caught up in some shyt...lol...
alls well that ends well
well later ya'll
peace,
destiny
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