Patience (widgy) wrote in womanpower, @ 2003-08-06 22:07:00

Current mood:

scared

The "what if" game
This has been a tough week for me personally. Lewy is fine, taking his meds etc. I had yet another abnormal pap smear, 3rd one in 6 months. Now I will go next week to see the GYN, my doc said that I have pre-cancerous cells, the what if game goes like this...what if....it's cancer, then what. what if.......it's spread what will I do then. what if....something happens to me, what will happen to my boys. what if.......Lewy won't fight for them and they have to live with their real father....it goes on and on and on. I also have to see their father next Friday for support modifacation, which will stir and trigger all the bad things of a very bad marriage and then the "what if" game starts all over there.

	all will be fine... crackerless 2003-08-12 17:13 (link)
	you should not let yourself get trapped into the what ifs.....the abnormalities are more common than you think. They like to say those things just to keep us on our toes. That happened to me years ago. I went nuts for a while, until I realized that it is not as bad as they say. Keep cool, things will look up........try to keep your chin up. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: all will be fine... widgy 2003-08-13 21:25 (link)
	Went to the GYN and they did a biopsy, only one small spot, doc thinks that it is mild dysplasia, which is good news...thanks for your encourgment, it was nice to know someone read my posts....Hugs (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: all will be fine... crackerless 2003-08-14 22:24 (link)
	I am so glad that things are going to be fine for you. anytime you need to bend and ear, I'm here for you. extra big hugs for you!!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: all will be fine... widgy 2003-08-15 10:01 (link)
	Thanks hon, have court today for child support modifacation, yeah, so nervous....added you to my friends list...thanks (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: all will be fine... crackerless 2003-08-15 10:41 (link)
	thank you I am honoured...hugs (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)