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what have i done?
so i was just sitting here, and all of a sudden i looked at a bottle of hair stuff, and it made me think, not even 4 months ago, i would never own something like that, why would i, theres no reason, im good the wa i am, i dont need to improve myslef for anyone. so it makes me think, did i , the one who for 16 years never bought into the world of looking good makep-up and hair, and clothes bs, FINALLY let my gaurd down, and become like everyone else?..... is it a good thing?, am i the same person?
well i can honestly say i am not the same person, the person i was just back at the begininning of the school yeah, would have laughed if i knew id be trying to figure out which way my hair looks best, which shirt makes me look skinnier, how i should do my make up that day, i cant believe myslef. this is rediculous. i am even dieting, and i wodner is it to be healthier, or is it to fit in with what i feel i am suppose to look like?
why all of a sudden am i scared im gonna look dumb for doing something, why am i worried that i dont look nice?? i dont get it
i'll tell you one thing though, i still am my own person, i dont think i am a bad person, and i sure as hell get alot more compliments than i used to.
it feels GOOD to hear your beautiful.
so are things better this way? or is it better to not care at all??.............ANYONE HAVE ANY ANSWERS?
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 | it becca
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2004-05-12 19:57
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hey ppl like u for who u are so don't change for anyone! i've decided a while age that if ppl don't like me w/o makeup or think i'm not as pretty w/o, screw them-if there like that u shouldn't worry bout them..
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