philip (whenstarsmeet) wrote, @ 2003-06-16 12:31:00

Current mood:	drained
Current music:	everlast - what its like

something in my eyes
well lets see this morning i woke up in a puddle of vomit on the floor... thats always fun. im bored out of my mind. i felt like shit yesterday. im drained today. i hope itll rain. i can play more songs on my guitar like everlast.
i think maddy may be cutting again. i hope she doesnt. and i hope shes not pregnant. shit i feel tired!. i really want to stay with her but if shes gonna be cutting or drugs or anything like that, then im outta there. im not sticking around to get a phone call about her and them asking me to claim the body at the morgue. not happening. not to me. oh no... i wont let it. fuck i need an aspirin.

listen dysfunctionalad 2003-06-16 14:59 (link)

ok listen im not doing that shit and u can stay cause im not fucked up its just at night i become this different image of me...a bad darker me and it scares me and u dont have to worry cause i know cuttign is wrong and i know that drugs are an illusion to reality and make it harder to deal with shit and its best to stay sober...casue if you arnt happy sober than somethign is wrong and im happy with you! u r my everythign!! and always will be and u dont have to worry so much (Reply to this) (Thread)