Nobody (whatiamnot) wrote, @ 2003-08-12 13:27:00

Alone
I'm bored, frustrated, angry...
Mum's at work, dad and jen are DIY shopping, and have been for hours. I'm alone.
Jennifer rang, said we were going to the park this aft. I don't think i can face it, but I have to force myself to. Its so hard. I thought we were going swimming this afternoon instead. I need the exercise. Hopefully I can go this evening.
I'm supposed to be thinking through next year, whats gonna happen on thursday etc. but I can't be bothered, it hurts too much.
Claire rang too, lots of awkward silences, and she's ignored my text messages. Never mind.
I can't be bothered anymore. It seems so hard to fight all the time. Why do I have to fight for her aswell?
Its lunchtime, I'm not hungry, and feeling too fat, will probably just skip it. Unless I can face a piece of fruit.
*sigh*