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| Current music: | have a little faith in me - john hiatt |
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i've been trying for days to write a normal "dear diary" type of entry where i talk about my day and what i did with it... only lately my daily events just haven't seemed very important. i'll give it a shot. i woke at 9am, wasted time on the computer before recieving a call from S* who was in town with her brand-new car. she started the conversation by congratulating me on my front page picture and story in the paper last week - that felt good. she came over for a couple hours to show me the car. i'm jealous. no easy way to put that. she has the car i wanted to lease last year, only my credit rating won't let me. her and her common-law are leasing it together. it's like the first big step for them other than living together... they've been doing that for years. i find myself growing more and more emotionally stunted. my lack of anything close to a real-relationship and my seemingly infinate tie to home. i'm too old for this, sneaks into my mind far more than it should. the real highlight of my day though *rolls eyes* was going out with mom and finding two ceramic cat dishes for my kitten that has yet to exist. still no kittens for sale/adoption anywhere. i'm told it will be a few weeks to months before cats start having kittens by the dozens again. sucks being born in march. you only get winter gifts. i've gotten ski equipment since time immemorial. i slept most of the late afternoon, got up for dinner and have been messing around with the computer or tv ever since. hence the new icon. it's a joke between a friend and i. something we laughed about a long time ago. still makes me smile. i haven't chatted with this friend for a few days. i've been trying, but socializing - even chatting - is so hard for me right now. i just hope he understands.
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