Manda (vanillarose8) wrote, @ 2007-12-28 08:51:00

On Holiday
I survived another Christmas. It wasn't so bad with my sister and her boyfriend, Jason, here. We all love him. And Jesse got to stay with us for like 5 days as well. So it was much better than I had anticipated.

I get nervous around the holidays because I never know how I am going to feel. I don't really like the idea Christmas has turned into, and I don't have very much money. Plus the idea of spending family time with my family sometimes is not something I really love. But this year it was fine. We had one dramatic moment Christmas Eve, but it blew over. It was nice to spend times with my sisters, together, mostly. And of course, playing with the Conor miester. Cutest. Baby. Ever. (Except for when I have kids).

Today Krissy and Jason go back home; I had to say goodbye to them yesterday because I am up early today. I have to go back to work (granted its for one day... but still). I am going to have a loooong day with three girlies. I hope they liked my Christmas gifts.

I got used to having Jesse at the house (and Kris and Jason). It was nice to not always be the center of drama.. or the reason for it. It was nice to be able to slip into the other room unnoticed if some sort of drama arose. It was nice to have Ellen be so jovial most of the time because Krissy was here. It was just nice. I didn't mind having Jesse there to rub my back before sleep every night either.

But I get to see him today after work. I just am so blah about my job. It's weird. I love the girls. I have fun with them. But I don't really love the job. If that makes sense. I am ready for something else, but I know that I am going to miss them a lot.

This journal is really of no value except to spout out random things floating in my head.. so don't mind the scattered-brain quality of it. And the lack of depth....