all alone :( (justsurrender11) wrote in unsent, @ 2010-03-25 23:19:00

Current mood:

calm

Dear Self,

Im proud of us. Im glad that we have gotten to the point that our skin doesnt crawl at the comments he leaves other girls, or when hes out doing god knows what with god knows who, our stomach doesnt drop. This is a new developement for us, but Im thankful we are finally seeing the light. I guess instead of the usual "My resolution is to get a beach body by June" should have been replaced with "I will get over him" because thats the only thing that has held true since January 1st. Even the slip ups when we replied to his "I want to start over" texts, you still held true to yourself, and although what you really wanted was to never talk to him again... atleast you didnt fall for his annoying lies, because those are like poison... and we can just never seem to get enough.

I know that we thought that it'd be a piece of cake this time around... its not like the first time you've ever broken up with him... but im happy that we are evolving into a much stronger woman. Our heart is finally listening to our brain... and our mind has known it all along.. he is just not the one for us.

he can say hes changed, that he loves us more than life itself, that hed do anything to fix what has happened... but words are useless... he never backs them up anyways and tonight was the perfect example. "I dont even talk to her anymore, she is nothing to me, you are all that i want, i want to be with you" blah blah blah... and what is he doing now that you assured him it was over? leaving her god damn comments on facebook.

pleaseeeeeeeeeee hold true to yourself. you will get there someday, even if it takes a year or two. keep holding strong self, because i need you to. We have already been showing so much progress and even though we break down and check his updates, one day it'll be all over for good.

Love, ME

amdizzle44 2010-03-29 00:33 (link)

"pleaseeeeeeeeeee hold true to yourself. you will get there someday, even if it takes a year or two. keep holding strong self, because i need you to. We have already been showing so much progress and even though we break down and check his updates, one day it'll be all over for good." Ugh, so TRUE. I'm in the same place as you with an ex... it's hard to break up and not go all crazy Facebook stalker on their ass. I unfriended, but still can see his profile thanks to his lackluster privacy settings. One day- it will all be over. I hope you get that day, and I hope I do too! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	crzy4u2134 2010-03-31 19:58 (link)
	block him sweetie, then u won't be tempted to look because you won't be able to see his profile at all <3 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	justsurrender11 2010-04-24 21:00 (link)
	LOL, i unfriended my ex too and can still see his profile. it SUCKS. its like everyday ill be like "no looking" and i end up on there being a creep. ITS HORRIBLE> I truly will be praying for us... its hard to just give up on things, and god some days im so over it and then theres a weekend were im like usher in the "u got it bad" video. lol (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

crzy4u2134 2010-03-31 19:55 (link)

"he can say hes changed, that he loves us more than life itself, that hed do anything to fix what has happened... but words are useless... he never backs them up anyways" I could not have said that any better. We are definitely going through the exact same thing. And I am so damn proud of us for staying true to ourselves. My ex is doing the same thing at this moment. He is promising me that things will be different the time, that he will make do everything he can to make this better if I give him another chance.. I told him to talk to the other girls he lied to me about, and feed them his bullshit because I'm over the lies.. Like I may not be over him but I am over the stress and the heartbreak he has caused me for the past year. And these guys need to realize that they fucked up and they don't deserve another chance. We deserve REAL men that treats us right ALL the time. And we can't settle for anything less than that. If we take them back, it just shows them that they are irresistable to us and can get away with anything and we will take them back. Nope!! Stay strong sista... I'm here for you.. you are like my soul sister, no lie <3 (Reply to this) (Thread)

justsurrender11 2010-04-24 21:04 (link)

UGHHH! Im so proud of you lovebug!!! We are soul sistas, its amazing how so much damage can wear on a heart, but also how it can bring so many girls together. I mean, I always felt so alone in what was going on with me and him just because nobody i know hows a relationship like mine and then i get on the internet and its totally relieving to know that their are others out there who feel my pain. Im truly thankful for that though, because although this situation sucks and we might bein it for a long time, we've made a friend out of it! You are so right, im going to have to print this whole post out and keep it with me when Im in doubt. We are better than these stupid guys who cant see a good thing if it hit them in the face. I mean, we sit and write letters on the internet, who does that? THEY COULD NEVER GET SOMEONE WHO IS MORE IN LOVE WITH THEM THAN US. It takes a selected few to do that... and thats all of us. I always keep you in my heart and remember that you are going through the same stupid crap as me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)