life's like that (messedupbetter) wrote in unsent, @ 2010-01-03 22:38:00

Dear Lis
Dear Lis,

I never forgot you
Like the sky -
Pale blue white
And smothered in haze
Faint memories stashed
Of a life gone by

When journals, verses
Letters and lust
Were burnt to ash
Floating upon the wind
Propelling you away
I learnt to live devoid

I replaced you
With countless names and faces
I chiselled over your scent
Your laughter
And your freckles
Until they were no more

How swiftly a scribbled name
Mirrored against a return address
Turns a heart
To a haemorrhaging mess
Strangled and
Gasping for oxygen

Slowly then suddenly
There are no four walls
To watch my shadow dance;
No car seat
I would rather ride in;
Than yours, with you

I would throw it all away -
All that has been written
And all yet to be written
Just to run my fingers
Over the pale blue white haze
Of your veins

I wonder if this time
Will you still say no -
Waving undoubtedly
As a red rag before a bull
Without breath
Surpassing your lips



I’m falling
Into the familiarity of falling
Ignorantly breathing
A foreign yet gentle air
I wonder if you know
(You’ve always known me too well)

So now I’m asking
Instead of waiting
Tell me what you see
(Not me
Never me
It was never me).

xo
from the girl who it will never be