Un4givenOne (un4givenone) wrote, @ 2009-07-13 16:07:00

I love you too J
Sometime early this morning after K left for work, I felt someone creeping into the bed as silently as possible. I opened one eye and there was my 8 yr old climbing in beside me. I patted the spot next to me and smiled..."come on boogerface, let's snuggle" and so we did. Her and I went back to sleep, cuddled up in our own little ball. Those are the moments I forget sometimes to cherish. When I woke up it was nearly noon. I heard the phone ringing in the livingroom and opened my eyes and looked around, the 8yr old was beside me and on the other side of her the 4 yr old had stealthy climbed in without my noticing. They looked so innocent lying there both sound asleep. A feeling of love overtook me and I almost cried!

I came into my livingroom and sat at my desk, morning rituals you know. Sit at desk while coffee is brewing look at emails and do my detective works as I have been in the past few months. I don't want to be a detective today. SO I sat there staring blindly when I saw a simple piece of paper laying on my desk. In a childs hand it had a good sized heart drawn on it and three simple words scrawled in the center... I LOVE YOU! Awww what a wonderful way to start this day! I was once again reminded how very precious my little girls are, yes they drive me nuttier then a fruit cake at times, but they love as only a child can..completely unconditional! If only we could all feel that way, into our adult years I mean. I did write her a note back in large carefully printed words. J, I love you! I drew little hearts on it and signed it... love always, Mom. Im sure my note didn't mean nearly as much to her as her's did to me (it now its taped on the side of the fridge so I don't forget) but her smile when she read my words lit up the room for me...!!

Thank you God! For giving me beautiful children, for reminding me life is worth living, and for showing me how blessed I truly am.

	walter_mitty 2009-07-14 13:20 (link)
	Kids can be such a sweet blessing! I thank God for my kids, even when they drive me crazy and make me furious. Mine are older than yours, so enjoy them while (mostly) listen to you :-) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	thebookofmylife 2009-07-15 22:42 (link)
	This whole post made me smile. I get this feeling from my daughter, Paige, all the time. I truely believe that God gave her to me to save my life and keep me focused and determined while going through cancer treatments. Iam so glad to hear that you had a wonderful day like this...!! Sure helps, doesnt it...!! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	un4givenone 2009-07-16 02:13 (link)
	Lisa Marie, Im so sorry to learn about your fight with cancer, I trust you are a survivor now with a clean bill of health! Makes my silly ramblings about things seem so petty. I will pray that God keeps you healthy and cancer free!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thebookofmylife 2009-07-17 00:18 (link)

I would call you by name, but I dont know it....so I am going to call you "Hope"...cuz no matter what you have written, I "see" Hope inside of you. My battle with cancer was no more or less then anything else that ordinary people go through each and every day. It doesnt make what you are dealing with more trival....or non important. Its life, plain and simple. And the truth is, I believe that which doesnt kill us makes us stronger. Children are a blessing from God...I believe that too!! And when we least expect it, they sneak in and do something to help bring joy and love into our lives. I relish in every minute of that!! I cant imagine my life without any one of my spoiled rotten, pain the ass....wonderfully loving kids. Have a Great night..... PS: You need to frame those wonderful "works of art"...... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

un4givenone 2009-07-18 11:58 (link)

Lisa Marie, I absolutely love that you choose to call me Hope! Without hope...I would have been gone years ago. I don't mean gone from a relationship, but gone from this earth. It and faith, my steady companions on this journey, have kept me rooted. It's funny... I picked this website to write in because the search enginge describes it as an adult community, however after reading quite a few of the posts I realized it was just like many of the others with quite a few teenagers I suspect. Since I do believe they are among us that is the reason I have choosen not use use my real name here. K has a teenage daughter. I wouldn't want to upset the balance between her and her father and if she knew any of the things going on in the past few months she would be very upset. I made the mistake of talking in the begining to my grown son (hes in the army, and 19) he then talked to his step sister on the internet and instantly the news was hitting K's myspace with accusations. Anyways, its not that I am hiding who I am from the legitimate writers here its that Im hiding from the innocent, no matter what happens between K and I... I wouldn't wish to destroy his relationships with his children. My father is a cancer survivor... 16 years cancer free!! Again, thanking God! ANd you are absolutely right, I should pursue some nice frames for my wonderful treasures! Thanks again for writing and as always your kind words and insight give me even MORE hope! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

un4givenone 2009-07-16 02:08 (link)

Kids can be a wonderful reminder of what we have to live for. This isnt my first time around I also have some that are grown productive citizens. I am 44 and the mother of two little ones but also have grandkids in the same age bracket! lol Its the teenage years that will be my undoing. Im so not looking forward to the "know it all" stages once again! STill have some good years left until then , thankfully. Whew!! (Reply to this) (Thread)