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All the money in the world can't buy u happiness...
All the money in the world can't buy u happiness.
I remember a primary school friend once told me that. I always thought otherwise... but today i learnt what that really meant.
Today, on the way back, i started questioning my life, my actions, myself. What's life for? What's the use of living? Then i started wondering, am i really happy? I thought the answer was yes, but upon closer thinking, i realized i'm far from being happy.
I remember people telling me how lucky i am, got rich parents and like very 'successful' like that... sigh... i think it's just the opposite. Well, i guess u could say i've got worms in this big shiny red apple called 'my life'.. Why?
Today, my mum picked me up from the station, and i told her that wilson was coming over tmr (the next day), then she like very suprised like that. Not exactly suprised lah, but like very disappointed like that. Then she went on to say that she had made plans for all of us to go out the next day, cos my sis's birthday... then i told her i needed to do my work. Then she got very upset, and started saying that our family is very broken. All distancced from each other. But the biggest gap is between me and my sisters. and my dad. and even my mum. basically my ENTIRE family. sigh,.... then she said, sometimes she doesn't know what to do, then she started crying... the moment she started crying, i just felt this whole overwhelmation (dunno if got such a word) of feelings. i just couldn't help it.
I started crying too.
Sometimes i just feel so bad. I mean, everytime my family go out, i'm always the one who doesn't go out with them, and always cos i have work to do. arghhhhh....!!! what's happening to me?
Another thing is my dad. He's away so often. I mean, the number of times i see him a year, i can count with my FINGERS. yes, my FINGERS. sigh... just now at the bus stop, i saw this father and son sitting at the side of the drain there, looking at the stars and talking. it wasn't anything special that they were doing, but when i saw it, i became envious. really envious. how i wished i could do something like that with my dad. i mean, i hardly see my dad, and we dun even do such simple things as talk to each other. as in have a nice conversation. i meaningful one. how i wish i just get to do something like that with my dad. nothing special, just maybe go jogging or something... sigh... some people dun know how lucky they are..
My dad's always away, earning money. Now what's the use, if ultimately, u dun get to enjoy that money. and what's the use of being rich. At the most, u only get materialistic things. sigh.... the real things in life that really matter, that mean a lot aren't purchasable. what's the point of being rich if u dun enjoy living ur life, and instead slave away, working so hard to earn money, so that u can enjoy ur life. Now isn't that contradicting? i mean, if u slave away your life, or rather, the part of your life where u should be enjoying urself, what's the use of having so much money? sure, u'd get a wonderfully nice retirement, but then, but dun forget, we only live once. and we're only young once. true, u can be young at heart, but then, what's the use if physically, you aren't really capable of what a young person might be able to do? Simple things like some sports and stuff.... sigh... the whole world revolves around money...
arghhh... many people think i'm very lucky. well, if u considered a home which is cold and aric, a family which you're distant from, a dad which u hardly see at all, indications of luck, then i guess i'm the luckiest guy in the world. Unfortunately (or fortunately), that's not the case.... all the money in the world can't buy u happiness. I'm certainly very satisfied or anything. I ain't happy with my life. sometimes i envy those that actually spend time with their parents, especially those that are really close to their dads...
sigh... I cried today.... what a horrible feeling it is....
What's the use of being rich?
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(Anonymous)
2003-08-30 21:43
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hey boi...cheer up :) its true tt u can't haf best of both worlds....its kinda fact tt u can onli haf one of the two. which is..happiness n wealth...u've got the latter...happiness...u do haf..juz tt..maybe not much as others...since ur dad's often away....but u still haf ur mum...ur frenz...n dun b too :( tt u ain tt close wif ur sisters...its aso normal lar...usually guyz gets along beta wif bros? hmm..yeah...in sch i believe u haf frenz tt can bring u joy~
u shud often tell urself u r aso one of the lucky lot...coz some ppl doesn't haf money..but dey dun haf ani kins either...n since u haf wealth..happiness is in ur hands..u'r able to create dem..~ try to spend more time wif ur family eh? when ur dad's back...treasure e few moments u haf wif him...liddat u'll find ur life more worthwhile..n u wun regret for getting distant from ur family.....
hmm..dun realli understand wad i typing aso eh...but hope...u cheer up k? :De senior whom u used to go together for band on sat aka ur prata mate (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-08-31 03:46
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hello..
cheer up lor.. eileen talks true.. u cant have the bez of both worlds. but it doesnt mean u dun haf happiness.. surely got 1 la.. juz that maybe your not aware of it onli.. think of all your frens la.. chenchung, blah blah.. n ur nice nice juniors.. jon ng, wenxiu.. blah blah.. hiya... if u think u've got no happiness.. den its wrong lor.. hiyo. so the baseline is.. cheer up!..
sOMeone from sec2 squad..(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-08-31 07:23
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hey, don't think too much bout this. you ever tried letting your parents know how you feel? i dun know whether it will work, but i think that its better than keeping everything to yourself. dun worry, something will work out. i guess this isn't very encouraging huh? juz wanted to tell you not to feel depressed bout this, k? or its gonna affect everything else that you do. hey, don't worry be happy. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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 lighteve
2003-09-01 02:56
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No use asking u not to be sad.... I've been through wad u're facing now. well, if u read my journal, u'll know...
Surely, it's 2 different type of situation... ur family is so rich, mine is poor... But it's the lack of communication that's prob. Dun cry, boy. Be a man. Stand up and face the prob. ya.... it's alright to feel lost at the moment... juz make sure u get over it soon! Nothing is too difficult! Talk to other pple if u have any prob... dun hide ur feelings... if not, u'll burst soon... :) noe that u'll feel funny if u talk to me, but u can talk to pple like wilson lah... and i'm sure u have many good frenz in band too!
Sometimes a word of encouragement would make ur mum happy... spend quality time with ur family! :)(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-01 03:15
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hey..its okay to cry.. its just letting out all ur bottled up emotions..anyway dun be so down..u've got lotsa reasons to be happy..like..err..u've got cc n jon ng..and lotsa other frens.. if u feel like u're not so close to ur family then try to spend more time with them..and like ur prata mate said..treasure the times u have wif ur dad.. maybe can talk to ur sisters about guys.maybe that'll help..hahaa..jus cheer up yah..its wierd seeing u sad..=p steph (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-01 04:49
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hEyZ...
dun be so sad lahz...
things r nv as bad as it seEms...
since u tink u r far away from dem,
maybe u can start making an effort to talk to dem now...
a simple, hows ur day cld make lotsa diff...
i'm sureur mom will appreciate it
newae, gd luck to u improving relations wiv ur family..
dun tink so much... act on it. actions speak louder den words after all...
cheeR uP!!
another someone from e sec2 squad(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-01 10:37
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erMz..
u trying to taunt him or trying to make him feel better when u keep mentioning genevis?
i dunno how twain feels lahz..
budden if i'm him..
i would feel like cracking open ur head..
heeZ.. no offence..
wenxiu(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-02 11:00
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hahaz..
jon poh!!
i bet ish u lohz..
damned.. how come end up quarrelling wif u on every1 else's diary?!?!
1st amanda's..
now twain's..
wow.. i'm enjoying dis game so much :S:P
wenxiu e GREATER-THAN-JON-POH
(yes.. let me repeat.. GREATER THAN JON POH.. muahahaz..)(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-07 10:25
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wAh.. U lIke To quarRel so Much ar.. siao ar.. i alreAdy tOLd u I grEAter daN u LIao.. u aS gReAT As U noE hu LIao.. haha.. Nth MUch 2 sAY Liao.. ahhah... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-08 00:59
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hahaz.. c u not happy wad..
u tink i like quarrelling wif u a lot??
hahaz.. waste my brain cells..
tsktsktsk.. :P
no.. i'm e greatest..
jon poh.. stop trying to deny tt truism.. :P(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-08 10:00
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haha.. IS U lor. dun wana MIan dui ShI Shi. u SHOULd fAce up to REalIty. haha.. =pppp (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-08 11:51
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ehz!!
can u stop pasting stamps over ur eyes??
hahaz.. obviously i'm better than u..
coZ i'm from basses..
muahahahaz..(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-09-08 22:23
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hiYa... sOOoooO? wHEre got pAste stAMp ON my EYes. wUn stICk THere AnywAe. ahaha... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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