the exquisite mistress (tormented_s0ul) wrote, @ 2003-09-10 01:24:00

Current mood:	emo
Current music:	watching memento

blah blah blah... emo like whoa.
The emo-ness has gotten worse. Now I'm fighting the urge to cry. I hate being like this, and I hate that I'm still affected by the silliest little things. Bah, I don't really feel like getting into it, because I'll wind up bawling my eyes out over this, but I will say this; when will I learn? There will always be someone else standing in the way, because I'm just not good enough to actually keep people around. Something in me is lacking. ((sighs)) Maybe one day, I'll find out what it is, fix it and have someone who's right for me fall madly in love with me. Ha. I don't know why I'm all worried about this. This is the exact same thing that I told Billy not to worry about. We're still young, and we have the rest of our lives to find someone special who we connect with. I just really wish it were now, because heck, living in Jersey is VERY lonely, especially if you don't have a boyfriend, and have only guys who you "see" occaisonally. No one steady person to make you feel all warm and tingly inside, because you know they're thinking about you just as much as you, if not more. Boo. Playing the detached female isn't as much fun anymore. Maybe I want more now. Maybe. We'll see.

I'm thinking I shouldn't think too much. <33 toodles.

	slasher 2003-09-10 11:16 (link)
	why are you so jealous of her? from what ive been reading it sounds like you have everything undercontrol and your life is exciting (Reply to this) (Thread)

tormented_s0ul 2003-09-10 22:02 (link)

Damned good reason, she has "him", which means I can't. I don't even know if I want him or not, but I just hate the fact that there is always a "her" in the way standing in the way. Argh. And, unfortunately. my life is NOT exciting, it's dull. All work and no play makes for a very pissed off Nancy who wants to go on a killing spree. Bah! Bah and humbug. And now that I'm done commenting back on the comments, I'll go and leave some comments on my own. [heart] .Nancy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Hey listen.... xxsympathy 2003-09-11 00:48 (link)

listen, who needs him, ya got me... lol j/k... but still, dont worry about it, ur young, im younger, but im still here for u... no matter what... i luv ya babez... u kno i love to make u smile, to make u happy, even if it is with kinky shyte... lol j/k... but really, i truly think we have alot more in store for us... now dont u go all emo on me... smile... i kno ur going to anyway... so smile... come on babez, its startin... i see the corner going up, ur losin the battle... ahh!! there t is a genuine smile... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hey listen.... tormented_s0ul 2003-09-11 01:00 (link)
	((smiles)) You cutie-pie, you. Always with the being sweet and adorable, making me like you more and more... despite the fact that you're only 17!!! Argh. S'all good though. I [heart] you too, my little precious Billy-called-Billiam. And damnit. I'll be emo if I feel like it. ((sticks tongue out at you)) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lonelysuperbi 2003-09-10 11:30 (link)
	Hey, i hope you feel better. I agree with you....right now all young people are trying to find love at some of the youngest ages ever thought. I admit I myself do it to...but now i know that we, as youth, are sometimes better off just waiting, and not really looking. The one that's meant for you will come to you; you don't have to look for it.... xRandom Lost One (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tormented_s0ul 2003-09-11 00:55 (link)
	Lol, it just gets so damned boring sometimes... I think I just torture myself because I enjoy the chase. Oh well, my fault. I just got to have my drama. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)