Christina (tina_maria_a) wrote, @ 2003-05-13 22:34:00

Current mood:	pissed off/crappy/sad/blehish
Current music:	The Red :: Chevelle

*sighs*

I give up.

--I feel like nothing I say and nothing I do is good enough.
--I feel like Christina Maria Aguilera is good enough for anyone.
--I feel that when someone meets the REAL me it's not good enough.
--I feel that I'm starting to lose my friends.
--I feel that I can only get attention of any kind if I'm taking off my clothes, singing, dancing, posing for a picture or complaining.
--I feel like a bitch for posting this.

I'm so sick of feeling this way. I'm a 22 year old woman with an amazing, if I do say so myself, career and loving friends and family. I should be happy. But, seriously, I'm feeling like shit. ... No one talks to me anymore unless I talk first. No one seems to care. Nothing.

I'm feeling really lonely in the love department. ... I haven't had a boyfriend in..2 years or so..? I'm ready for a relationship. I've had my eye on pleanty of guys before but they're taken, not interested or gay. ... I really liked this one guy...but me and my stupid self didn't say anything when I had the chance. I said it way too late. I like this guy now but..he doesn't seem interested. .. I mean..what the hell is wrong with me!? .. Anyone wanna answer??

*sighs* I'm just so tired of feeling this way.

	jmadden_ 2003-05-13 22:51 (link)
	*blinks* Well.. I don't know how much good this is going to do Chrissy, but I care, and I don't think anything is wrong with you. I just think some people, I guess you could include myself in this one, are wrapped up in their own life. I just had a real big wake up call. I'm here if you need someone to talk to. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-14 12:41 (link)
	I know you do, Joel. And thanks for that. I suppose they all are. I know that there's..a lot going on around here with everyone and I feel selfish for complaining about my life and being ungrateful instead of offering a shoulder for everyone else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	freakme_josh 2003-05-13 23:54 (link)
	Oh Chrissy... *gives you a big hug* I can say for a fact that you are not losing me. No way, no how. You're stuck with me for life. *nods firmly* (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-14 12:42 (link)
	*hugs* Thanks, Josh. Cause..really, I don't know what I'd do without you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nearly_nick 2003-05-14 08:42 (link)
	There's nothing wrong with you. You're a very beautiful woman. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-14 12:42 (link)
	*smiles slightly* Thanks, Nick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mandzmoore 2003-05-14 09:28 (link)
	There's nothing wrong with you at all. And I'm here for you. You'll never lose me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-14 12:43 (link)
	Thanks, Mandy. That means a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jedi_skywalker 2003-05-14 15:33 (link)
	what can i do to help? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-18 02:01 (link)
	There's nothing you can do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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bad_beckham 2003-05-16 23:21 (link)

I know we don't know each other, But what I do know is that you are a very beautiful, mature, multi-talented young woman and you have attributions that not many women these days hold. I also know that you are a very strong, willing person who has survived through many trials and is still living for today with faith in what society believes no longer exists. And civilization is obviously blind to think otherwise.. As overly used as this may seem, and to many people may have gradually lost its intending meaning, Regardless of how many times it's been said, I'm going to say it anyway. I'm here... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	tina_maria_a 2003-05-18 02:04 (link)
	Thank you, David. That means a lot to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)