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|Current music:||um I can't breathe or hear so...nothing?|
Is this even close?
"Your personality score is
what does that mean?
Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate."
This is a joke right? I mean I do not have an impulsive personality and I'm not even quick to make decisions, did I answer the questions wrong? Well I guess it kind of depends on when you take it... So life right now is kinda same old same old. Got the worst score I've ever gotten on a math test (63%)- my excuse, it was my birthday I couldn't concentrate :) Luckily we get to drop a test, that lights a fire under my ass to actually start trying. I don't know what has gotten into me lately but I put off everything, I don't do my homework, I don't read the texts, I don't do anything beyond practice with the team, and I hardly work (20 hours a week at the most) so where the fuck does all the time go? It's sad because last year I was balancing school and softball and doing great in both, now I can't hit worth a s*** and I never study- I guess college takes some getting used to. So I've decided to get this show on the road and actually start setting goals for myself, I do this a lot and it never seems to work. Maybe if I write them down? Oh who knows. I'm feeling kinda expressive right now so I'm gonna drop a name- Joe. I met him on the internet over a year ago, we started out just talking and stuff, he seemed to drift, I wrote a goodbye letter saying I enjoyed the trip but it seemed like we had lost it. He appears out of no where and all of a sudden we're buddy buddy again. We talked a lot over summer (expecting that I'd be going away) and when I didn't, we talked even more. At the time he lived in Pennsylvania, but later his job took him to good old California (an 8 hour drive, an hour flight away) and we actually started talking about meeting. Being the chicken that I am I didn't know if I would actually go through with it, I did (December 27th), it was awkward but fun :) It's so different meeting someone in person, it's like you know them, but you don't, weird. So after all that I think he became kind of attached and I, well I'm just confused. It's like he expects me to say things and be open with him but something holds me back. Part of his last letter "I know that
I want to continue being your friend and growing in our friendship, but lately I have been wanting more then just your friendship, I think I have been wanting your companionship, which is probably totally unrealistic at
this point in time, so I guess I get frustrated." I don't know what to say to that! Sometimes I wonder what I have gotten myself into. Well that's all I have to say about that. So I would say this journal entry went ok...kind of feels good to say things in the (semi)open. By the way I still haven't gotten my ticket information in the mail, does that mean I don't have to pay! CHP sucks...which reminds of something not to say to a cop if he asks "your eyes look red, have you been drinking?" don't respond with "your eyes looked glazed, have you been eating donuts?" And with that, goodbye.
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