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| Current music: | In my head I'm thinking: My Own Worst Enemy by Lit |
Another Night, Another Dream
So, I talked to Jason last night, and for some reason, I wound up apologizing for the whole mess Tuesday night...Why did I apologize? Why do I always do that? I constantly keep my mouth shut in relationships, and I get so mad, and then they don't understand why I am upset. You would think that I would learn from my past mistakes. I can't understand why I'm such a jealous person. Not to other people-just in relationships. I just think that they're constantly attracted to other girls and that other girls are better. Jason, probably thinks I'm this huge biznatch and Katie is just the innocent bystander in all this. But the thing about Jason that is frustrating and yet, strangly endearing, is that he thinks everyone is innocent. He sees so much good in people. He's blind when it comes to seeing people for who they really are. Someone could be the most vicious, deceptive, back-stabber and he would think they were God's gift. In that repect he reminds me of Leigh. I just cannot be that trusting. I see things for what they truly are. Well, most of the time. I've have a tendency to exaggerate and see things that aren't there a few times in my life. But I am very perceptive when it comes to people. I sense things about them and usually, I'm right...
I just wish that people all around me would stop lying and I wish that I could trust more people, but I just can't. I just want to take this time to thank Rachel for all her inspiring comments- she has no idea how much they mean!! I'm out...
Cara
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 | "Those who do not remember the past, are doomed to repeat it" 
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2003-09-25 13:32
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You are always welcome.. and you know the quality that you find so greatly endearing in Jason, I also find it in you! I guess I really have never told you this before. I think it is probably because I didn't want you to think, that I thought you were nieve, because by all means I do not think that. But you really do focus on the greatness that could be there and you just overlook all the bad right in front of you. I have always loved that about you!!!!! I could be tearing someone to shreds with words and all you do is point out the great things!!!! Thats a great quality don't ever loose it Cara!!! Have a great day. and Just remember it is all going to be alright... We are both going to be happy eventually!
and p.s. a 4-6 page something is not an essay it is a paper!
Love Always and Forever
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