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| Current music: | Lonestar - Front Porch Looking In |
The Wrong Way
Sometimes you just think that you're headed in the wrong direction so you stop to think about it...and meanwhile oppurtunties slip past. You never know it, but they do and who could really tell you what they might have been?
The world is a cruel and heartless place, and who can save you now? You've abandoned all that really care and all your left with is your own tears that you hadn't shed for years. You could something over in your mind a million and twenty-nine times, but whos to say that it'd be okay after all that time? You'll still be you...unless you change, but who can really do that?
As for me, I'm sure you know that I'm quite myself. I'm odd and different, loud and shy, and I try to hide away all the times I've ever cried. But this is exactly what I don't want..I want you to know and to be there to hold me, to tell me its all ok. I want to feel comforted and not rejected, not some temporary toy. I miss knowing that I can go to you..and missing that you care. I hate that she can make you fall head over heels, and I can't even make you stumble. I've tried and its true and so obvious by now, I'm nothing but a second best and a first place loser, just like they had always said.
So what's new? I'm enjoying most likely, my last day off. Yay. I get a very minimal paycheck for two weeks. HOORAY. (note: sarcasm). Lately...I've just been kind of lost. I don't really like sitting home all day doing nothing but housework for my mom and my sister and somehow..still getting money taken away from me ...*shrugs*. I talked to Rey last night..like acctually talked to him. It was pretty cool..I hadn't ever sat down and had like a real conversation with him, so yea. I found out a bunch about him that I didn't know..and that he sounds a LOT different on the phone. Hah, why is this relevant? (laura, no I'm not boycrazy! hah....yet) Anyway we're trying to make plans to hang out at the Avenues or something. He's gonna have to be like my tour guide, hah! Cuz I've only ever been to the Avenues like 3 or 4 times. It should be interesting. Well, If it happens. Stupid parents and them..being parent like. It's quite annoying.
So yea. I'm kind of anxious to get back to work, just so I have something to do. Hopefully they have me scheduled tomorrow. *pleads*
Oh yea!!!! If you know the song thats talking about a dad giving his car to his son that goes "hold on to her boy with all your might she's got so much to give if you treat her right" Then let me know, I'm looking for that songgggg I <33333 it.
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(Anonymous)
2003-06-19 03:09
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Who could possibly mistake you as a temporary toy? Who ever it may be you're superior to that, and you can do better. Conversely, maybe you're being deceived by a possible misconception. You can't always heed your friends. Try finding some answers through yourself; you may reveal that you've been deluded the entire time. Only you know what's best for you, and once you establish what that is, go for it! Converse with those you’re troubled about. You may be staggered at how much can be cleared up through an effortless conversation. Don't let anyone obstruct in your way, as no one else deserves what you desire as much as you do Sagittarius. The stars are watching over you. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2003-06-19 10:10
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listen to country, i know its country but i cant think of it... ill et you know when i find out, if you havent already... lol (Reply to this) (Thread) |
| boy crazy? you? *never*
 ruthmargaret
2003-06-20 17:23
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ooooh...you and reymonn going to the mall... alone . hmmm...oh dear...our little jessi leigh is growing up sooooo fast...lol. have fun and don't worry maybe the summer will pick up for you. lord knows it won't for me. but damn it all i need to call people...that is my problem. argh...i have mental issues. love ya lots 'n lots! (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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