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Jackie (the_true_hurts) wrote,
@ 2004-05-15 11:54:00
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    Current mood: crushed
    Current music: austin - blake shelton

    p.s. if this is bryan i still love you
    this morning i feel a little better from last night. Bryan called like 4 times last night, i didnt answer though, i was sleeping, but we talked this morning and things are okay. My heart still feels like it's in two but i guess it'll be okay soon. Listening to love songs and let me tell you they have no idea what heart break really is, lol. I'm just so blah right now ... tired, i didnt sleep good last night, not at all. I tried to watch tv and get my mind off things but that didnt work so i just closed me eyes and had an amazing dream, bryan and i lived together and had a dog and we were happy, really happy. Notice this was all a dream? Arg .. i am so mad at myself for giving someone the ability to hurt me so bad. I thought he was happy with me, i really thought he was happy. I wish he'd tell me when things are bothering him as they happen, not 2 hours later when i have no idea what he's talking about. Ahhh! I hope we talk today and sort everything out ((ringring)) he's calling!!

    jackie - hello
    bryan - hey
    jackie - whats up
    bryan - nothing you
    jackie - nothing
    bryan - thats cool
    jackie - yeah
    bryan - ((yawn))
    jackie - what are you doing
    bryan - getting ready to go to work, i have work in a little bit
    jackie - oh sounds like fun
    bryan - oh yes
    jackie - i bet
    bryan - ((yawn))
    jackie - ((breathing deeply))
    bryan - hey
    jackie - huh
    bryan - mind if i jump in the shower
    jackie - sure
    bryan - ill call you back
    jackie - ok
    bryan - I LOVE YOU
    jackie - i love you too
    bryan - buh bye
    jackie - bye


    wow he said he loves me ...... so does that mean things are okay?? I hope so, cause i love him a lot and i couldnt be without him. He's my everything. I know that things are hard sometimes and those are the times that love is the strongest. I just hope we can overcome this and be together, forever and always. This is how i feel ...


    Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
    To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
    Dreams could be shattered
    You could be gone
    How would I survive
    Cause you're where I belong
    My soul-believer
    Without you, I don't know who I would be

    Underneath, I can feel you move through me
    Inside out, you surround me
    I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
    Oh, you're everything I know
    So how could I let you go

    Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
    I disconnect from everything inside
    And I have made choices
    And wasted all the days
    I could have been with you
    Where my heart stayed
    I know you've waited faithfully
    Blessing our love even stronger

    Underneath, I can feel you move through me
    Inside out, you surround me
    I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
    Oh, you're everything I know
    So how could I let you go

    And I've been blessed
    For every kiss
    For every breath
    (How could I let you down)
    And I've been touched,
    By hands I trust
    My love is risen

    Underneath, I can feel you move through me
    Inside out, you surround me
    I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
    Oh, you're everything I know
    So how could I let you
    How could I let you go

    ya know - it's like that song is perfect for how i feel right now. going to the mall to get my shoes today. You'd think i'd be happy knowing that but im just blah about everything. I'm gonna go ... i have to think about things



    * jackie *



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