| Current mood: |  crushed |
| Current music: | austin - blake shelton |
p.s. if this is bryan i still love you
this morning i feel a little better from last night. Bryan called like 4 times last night, i didnt answer though, i was sleeping, but we talked this morning and things are okay. My heart still feels like it's in two but i guess it'll be okay soon. Listening to love songs and let me tell you they have no idea what heart break really is, lol. I'm just so blah right now ... tired, i didnt sleep good last night, not at all. I tried to watch tv and get my mind off things but that didnt work so i just closed me eyes and had an amazing dream, bryan and i lived together and had a dog and we were happy, really happy. Notice this was all a dream? Arg .. i am so mad at myself for giving someone the ability to hurt me so bad. I thought he was happy with me, i really thought he was happy. I wish he'd tell me when things are bothering him as they happen, not 2 hours later when i have no idea what he's talking about. Ahhh! I hope we talk today and sort everything out ((ringring)) he's calling!!
jackie - hello
bryan - hey
jackie - whats up
bryan - nothing you
jackie - nothing
bryan - thats cool
jackie - yeah
bryan - ((yawn))
jackie - what are you doing
bryan - getting ready to go to work, i have work in a little bit
jackie - oh sounds like fun
bryan - oh yes
jackie - i bet
bryan - ((yawn))
jackie - ((breathing deeply))
bryan - hey
jackie - huh
bryan - mind if i jump in the shower
jackie - sure
bryan - ill call you back
jackie - ok
bryan - I LOVE YOU
jackie - i love you too
bryan - buh bye
jackie - bye
wow he said he loves me ...... so does that mean things are okay?? I hope so, cause i love him a lot and i couldnt be without him. He's my everything. I know that things are hard sometimes and those are the times that love is the strongest. I just hope we can overcome this and be together, forever and always. This is how i feel ...
Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go
Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go
And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go
ya know - it's like that song is perfect for how i feel right now. going to the mall to get my shoes today. You'd think i'd be happy knowing that but im just blah about everything. I'm gonna go ... i have to think about things
* jackie *
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