sanny (terminalblock) wrote, @ 2008-11-06 12:40:00

Chapter 35 Who injures whom (3) new
Chapter 35 Who injures whom (3) new
He helps me to change into the clean clothes, embraces me and goes to bed. I hold him tightly, do you also want me? Love me? Care about me? I am shedding the tears ceaselessly.
He say nothing, help me tuck in, horn, sigh one breath gently well.
Chapter 36 I lost you (1) at last new
Xiao Cheng leaves the house to me, has not refused, can be regarded as him for the child's, the child in the stomach needs money to support. I decide to give birth to this child, I like girls, but I hope this is a small boy, clear expression in one's eyes like have desolate to become, he will grow up slowly, long formation of image man like being desolate to succeed, will very painful very painful one carelessness offer as a gift, fall kindhearted evil spirit in human world. He is granted by Xiao Tian.
White gull asks I moor the fatherless boat. Is it the body that stay? Is it the heart that stay?
When if the heart stays, what locks the brow?
I become reticent all of a sudden, Cheng Xiao question either, day live gingerly, like a few years, a kind of sense of loss and agony sunk in the heart, still envy, have envied that and stolen the woman with desolate heart that becomes. One sound tell I am whom you force such as the he, shouldn't blame him, but another sound tells me, can't forgive such betrayal, no,I can't. Pester in the heart, is struggling, can not wake up in the deep nightmare.
Consider should how open one's mouth with Cheng Xiao, want, regard as, see thing that take place still, I do not know whether can accomplish by oneself, but I have already decided to forget all these are passing, perhaps it is for the child in the belly, perhaps it is for during the last ten years becoming love to me desolately, perhaps it is for oneself. Yes, when everybody makes a mistake, each man will join in the fun on occasion, who really bears and casts aside one's own knot to send to the wife? Perhaps picture tall and erect, Cheng Xiao look for to give vent to the mouth other emotion too, he will come back, sure to come back, he is the love, I. So long as he comes back, I happen in nothing, nothing happens.
When considering all day even, Xiao Cheng talks to me first in me.
The ice is blue, I want to tell you something.
Eh, I am looking at his eyes.
He does not dare to face up to, I. I know what he has wanted to say.
He has spoken haltingly for quite a while, wishes to speak but not to do so on a second thought.
Is it about her?
Do you know?
I have not spoken. Think oneself very cumbersome, why meet his thread of conversation, perhaps, perhaps he will swallow back the words if I do not meet, have no way, like this, doing things will all do clearly, will die a absolutely clear death too in the personality.
Once said tall and erectly, the ice was blue, you were a clever child, the stage of pretending not to know but has not arrived cleverly, life must be a bit more confused sometimes. Your personality is too fierce, always tear the thing, present bloody reality to everybody, cruel definitely.
No, I pieces of stupid woman very really, know how treasure emotion, know how save marriage, keeping oneself that little dignity and pride stupidly.
The ice is blue, let's divorce.
Why expect Cheng Xiao want until whom I talk about to divorce, I can bear to overstep the limit he, but he wants to divorce me.
Xiao Cheng, I can understand the thing of you and her, but divorce, can you be a bit more prudent?
The ice is blue, I have thought for a long time, I am sorry.
Do you love her?
He is reticent. Yes. She lets me think that is needed, let me think living oneself is in one's heart, the ice is blue, you know, what an important thing the heart looks for a family. I have collected you ten solid years in the heart, but does not have my position in your heart forever, I am really tired.
My tears have flowed. Read in the heart silently, no, Xiao Cheng, you are in my heart, you are true in my heart.
Feel oneself is very of no use, why not learn to express one's own heart forever, I am a person that will not explain. In fact, even it is useless to explain, I see, what kind of person I know and become desolately, once he decides, it is not so possible as the one that turned round. Yes, having used separation for one year, I found at last that can't leave so desolately as to succeed by oneself. And exactly the time in this year, Xiao Cheng finds, it perhaps can be more splendid to leave the my world.
Blue, don't cry. You are just unable to accept this reality for the moment, in fact, have not needed me in your life at all, right? I but fond dream paid, perhaps, really finished this unfortunate marriage at time, it is free to give to you, give to me too freely. Moreover, the most important thing is, she has cherished my child, I can't abandon her to leave alone.
I know how the desolate city hopes that there is a child's, he is sure to love that woman giving birth to the child for him very much, he speak what I hear at all, dull to sit in there, heart read quietly, no, Xiao Cheng, I love you, I want to give birth to a child for you too, but, how could let you believe? How could let you believe? My chest is very bored, the angry feeling that can't breathe heavily.
Xiao Cheng has moved out, I live in this set of empty and hollow houses alone, it is unable to breathe that it is cold, I miss and succeed desolately, miss his warmth, miss that cup of warm milk in every night. And I know, this time, he will not come back again.
It invite I by Xiao come out to the Chengs,at, on the coffee, Xiao Cheng of silence unusuallies island. I have lost all dash.
I say trembling, Xiao Cheng, your heart has gone, yes? Everything is unable to let you come back to my side again, yes?
Xiao Cheng remains silent.
All lines that has decide forget, I whether piece does not can earnestly hope people of love. If the heart has left, let nothing draw and go back.
Tremble at divorce agreement signing, heavy to drip tears drip, get on, the same as copper cash faints and opens, has said that does not cry, why cry again?
Xiao Cheng takes over the agreement reticently.
Time phone me definitely, I turn round to walk out, the tears flow up.