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Tekafone (tekafone) wrote,
@ 2003-11-10 10:27:00
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    Current mood: blank
    Current music:Javier-Crazy

    Tonite I was close to cheating on my girlfriend, to most women reading your probably thinking that would be obvious. When I was holding her I didn't feel anything, nothing at all, and the people who were hanging out with us just said whoa they're kind of close right there. That's besides the point though it's when I moved in to kiss her.....its like when my lips touched her's an alarm went off in my head like dude what the hell are you doing? I dont know right now I dont feel anything, I'm not happy, I'm not sad or mad. Its like I'm absence of feeling. You know the feeling of light breezes theres a wind but its not strong enough to affect you in anyway. Thats kind of happening right know. I know what I did tonite was wrong I flirted around but i didn't cheat. I did almost but almost doesn't count. What I did I don't know maybe its not worrying me because the feelings that I have for my girlfriend are strong enough to hold anything you know. My mom always told me never go out with anyone with cold hands, if they have cold hands they have cold hearts. From most of the women I met with the ones that aren't relationship material have the below zero touch. Now that I think about it why did I do that my girl is probably ten times that girl arrrrgghhhhhh I don't know what to do. I know not to tell her though, this may sound like I don't mean it but I never want to hurt her ever.
    This was my first entry I'm going to try to put something meaningful at the end of each one.....hmmmmmm.
    The love of money is the meaning of death, the meaning of life only goes as far as what a human's worth I guess this is the real curse of the earth, many actions disperse some go in head first grabbing a bull by the horns. Look before you leap because roses still carry thorns.

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2003-11-12 18:49 (link)
tsk tsk!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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