Tanya Nicole (tanyanicole) wrote, @ 2004-07-20 10:40:00

Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	AMIGA- Shell & Elida

Not so happy ending
What an interesting twist of events last night. The way I feel right now is indescribable! The news was something that I have dreaded for a while now. I didn't expect it from him or HER!

Why did I ignore the dream and why was I dealt these cards? I have lost 2 people I considered dear to me, to each other. God's way of telling me they were no good for me to begin with I guess. Now it all makes perfect sense. The lack of phone calls from both of them and the distance they had started to put between us.

It's the worst feeling in the world. I confided in her with all my feelings and He knew exactly what he meant to me. I couldn't sleep, I can't get the sound of his voice telling me out of my mind. But I will eventually. He was right though when he said I deserve some one who will care enough for me just as much as I cared for him.

I'm moving on. I will get over it like all the rest, I just fell for this one a lil harder. If any good comes out of this it's that I will be stronger. I could sit here and type more but it changes nothing. Why did I even make the effort to start this entry to begin with.

To my "TRUE" friends ESMER, LISA & FRANK who were there for me last night. Thanks so much for taking the time when I needed it. Your thoughts and advice made me stop the tears for a moment and just breathe and realize that things happen for a reason and it will take them longer to live with it than it will take me to get over it.

	BI,BO esmeraldaboo 2004-07-20 16:24 (link)
	Amen, anytime, and that's what friends are for. I am sorry this came about and not sure why things happened the way they did, but it all comes out in the wash sooner or later. Cagle says it best::::::: BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT, and take one day at a time! NO DOUBT you'll be moving on UP! God bless and know we'll be here for you! (Reply to this) (Thread)