garfield goddess (sweetsunshower) wrote, @ 2004-01-15 20:30:00

Current mood:	thirsty
Current music:	run to the water by live

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i am diabetic, i so so think. i am scheduled for a bloodsugar whatever test soon. i'm trying to look brave but honestly, i am terrified to no end. and exaggeratedly thirsty (diabetes mellitus symptom #1). my lola's been diabetic for years now and i know what it can do to a person: the insulin injection, a lifetime of 'equal' usage, fare thee well chocolates and gummi bears.

a little peephole to hope: my paranoia. it could be i'm just so paranoid it psychologically whacks my throat and bladder. thus, the excessive thirst and urination. i've had moments believing that i had: a) sclerosis b) lymphoma c) prelude to polio. so you know maybe i'm immersed in such moments again. hahahahaha. don't i just freak you out.

let's see. on to other, healthier things.

i'm tutoring jenny! sally's four year old sister. i don't know how to exactly word out our relationship but the weeks have been fab. jenny still speaks in broken english so oftentimes it takes me five seconds to understand what she is saying. we operate on animated gestures, too. right now, we're doing ABCs and awww, you should see how she intends to know ABC by heart.

"okay jenny. what's this? what's the letter after S?"
"wait. wait." that's the cue for her to sing ABC right from the start until she reaches the letter T.

"nobie (their yaya) starts with the letter....???"
"N."
"very good!"
"N is the name of my mama also." anne is the name of her mother, hee.

"S sounds like sssssssss (makes hissing sound)"
"like snake!"
"yes very good, like snake!"
"snake starts with s." prompting a clap for me because aww, the girl's getting the drift!

"do your classmates speak english?"
"no. but one friend have english. then all have tagalog."

"jenny, how old are you?"
"i don't know. i will tell my mother."
"no, i think you're four."
"no, i think i'm five." then shows me her dainty five fingers to illustrate the point. (but she's only four years old, that cute little korean.)

and it's not just the conversation that melts me. it's her face that just lights up every time she writes down letter B or D. she sings ABC with so much zest i just find myself drumming my fingers on the table and clapping my hands. she's an eager beaver. lovely girl. super lovely girl. it does make me soo good hearing from her mom how jenny waits for me every afternoon and asks her mom what time will i come.

sweetness ;) ( and i don't mean my diabetes.)

	(Anonymous) 2004-01-16 00:36 (link)
	sam the gal!!!! hay.. sana negative ung test. mukha ka namang healthy ah. hay..parehas kayong cute ni jenny! ur two lovely souls. sweetness in its essence. yngatz palague!! tsang! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sweetsunshower 2004-01-18 19:20 (link)
	tsong!! :D thanks, thanks, sana nga, sana nga :D ingat rin kaw ok!! dont tire urself too much! (HUGS) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	phantom illnesses sunshinysarcasm 2004-01-21 22:44 (link)
	there was one time i thought i had breast cancer because there was a hardened area to the side of my left breast. given how my mom often writes articles on breast cancer, i thought it was some twist of Fate that her daughter would get it. turned out to be just an infection. *whew!* (Reply to this) (Thread)

samskiedoodles! (Anonymous) 2004-01-22 22:17 (link)

nona here! miss you gal! so what now? i'm free next week til the next and so want to see you! see, mona lisa smile opens feb 4. i've no news yet about school of rock (cuz i really wanna watch that with you cuz its got rock music on it and yeah, kids! hehe) but hey, let's schedule ayt? just let me know when you're free. mishu girl. hey! dont think ur sick. you will be fine! say, are you hungry every two hours, thats another sign that ur diabetic. oy, nanakot daw ba? hehe. well, mishu my dear. i'll see ya soon! and aaaww, jenny's sooo adorable! haha. " c is for cookie, thats good enough for me..." ;-) "s is for sam, that's... sam!" (Reply to this) (Thread)