|Current mood:|| depressed|
You saved me, my earth angel
I always finding myself thinking of you. I just wish I could forget, or maybe never even have met you. I just wish I could keep you out of my head, my heart, my dreams. Erase you from everything. I just dont want to care anymore, but how can I not care?
I have so many questions I wish that could be answered. All I want are answers. I dont know why, but I dont want to forget, I want to hold my false hope and keep it all alive.
Sure everyone has a "Mr. Right" but I was hoping you were mine. Maybe you are? Am I stupid to think this way? I dont understand this, nor do i want to. I was afraid to fall in love, but I did. You swept me off of my feet, I was in heaven. I fell for you.
Then everything was taken away from me. For one little mistake, maybe not little, but it wasnt even my fault. I was assulted, I didnt want to tell anyone, but I told you and some close friends. I felt if I didnt tell you, I wouldnt be truthful.
I sit here and wonder what it would be like still being with you. Or what if something happened differently. I sit and think, would you still be here with me? Or would you still run to her? Would my life be as it is now or would it be so much happier and easier with you by my side again? I just dont want to feel regret anymore.
When I see you, I try to look away, I try to pretend not to see you or feel the feelings I have for you. When I hear your name I get butterflies in the pit of my stomache. I have a smile and a tear on my face when I remember all the good times we've had. It gives me away. In my heart, I still care for you. Its insane. I still care for you after all that happened. Maybe I am insane, or I am going insane.
I dont make sense to myself anymore.. and I've never made sense to anyone but you. You were the one who understood me. I trusted you and told you all I had in my heart, soul and mind. You were my everything. I felt the need for once to be on this earth. I thought you were my angel. You were sent to me from God before it was too late. You were here to save me. My angel on earth, my earth angel.
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