Tara (storiesnalibis) wrote, @ 2003-11-11 20:05:00

Current mood:	hyper
Current music:	"my love is like WOAH!" -Mya

waiting is boring....
So, yah, we went shopping, it was fun. All Carissa and I did was sit in the Queen chairs and talk about tattoos and boys. We haven't really had a talk like that in a long time. It was good... Hahaha, Guess what we did!! We called that stupid TBS phone thing. Hahaha. It was entertaining. WE left some stupid ass message about how they are pretty rad and then the loud speaker at the furniture store went off so I told them we were furniture shopping. Hahaha. How lame. But it was so entertaing!....... Anyway, I could be at Yellowcard and Fallout Boy right now having a grand time. But no, where am I? AT MY HOUSE! This sucks because they are both really great bands! Not like I haven't seen them before, but still. I'm bitter.
And I'm annoyed because Matt will not stop calling me and texting me. He's either, not to sound conceited or anything, but.. He's either REALLY obsessed or he's just a psycho. I can't stand the kid and he doesn't get it. So tonight I told him he's an effing moron and we're not friends, we never were friends, and we'll never be friends. But apparently he didn't get the memo because he just text me again right now this very second! What do I have to do to the kid to make him realize that I wish he was invisible! AHHHHHHHH! Someone make him go the hell away. I'm gonna lie to him and tell him I have a bf and make Ben or someone tell him to eff off! Maybe that will work.
ahajgrgj.... I hate him!
New subject... Kaite doesn't get off work until 11! It's like 8 or something now and I plan to make this the longest post EVER! So I guess Carissa doesn't like Brian. Katie was wrong! Hahaha He has to be the nicest boy ever though! It was fuuny, in the car on the way tothe furniture place we were telling her mom about all the guys in the band and Carissa says,"Tara gets all the guys whenever we go anywhere". THAT IS SO NOT TRUE! Nope, I disagree. I do not! That's usually Katie!!!! KATIE KATIE KATIE! Not Tara, KATIE! Bah! Speaking of boys, I stole Ben's hat! But he stole my pants so I guess we're even. Yep, you read it right, MY PANTS. He decided girl Dickies are much better than boy Dickies. Silly Ben! But I love him so. Even though Nicole is bitter about the whole Katie and Ben friends again thing, I think it was kind of good of him to talk to her again. She was miserable without him. But now she's back to happy Katie again. But sometimes I wish that she didn't get so jealous when other girls talk to him or hit on him. I meam yah he's hot and I hit on him all the time. But I guess it's just the way that she is. Don't get me wrong, I love them both and I'm happy that they are friends again. But sometimes I have mixed feelings about it...Anyway, I'm outta here. I've wasted a long time on the net. So I'm gonna go talk to my mom. Maybe I'll have another crazy ass story from her. She already invented aquatic horse riding! How can you get that out of 'quarters by friday'? Silly mommy, I maybe back later. Hahaha!

Bitter is an understatement (Anonymous) 2003-11-12 01:52 (link)

Yeah, how dare I worry about Katie being hurt once again... Grrr.. No one gets it... I guess I just love and care about people too much and we're all to naïveté to see when others are right. I know I've done it before as well, but it's so much more frustrating being on the other end. I love Ben to death, but I can't sit by and watch him hurt one the few friends I have. She's better off without him. The two of you told me that I'm not allowed to love or miss Chris and that's how I feel about this. It was hard for me to let go and I know it's hard for her, but it's for the best. Katie is one of the greatest girls I know and she deserves so much more than being walked all over and used by someone who does nothing than lie to her about her. If he cared for the way he said he did he wouldn't have lied to his friends about her and if he hated her the way he told everyone else he did he wouldn't have fucked and wouldn't be missing her. He's a walking contradiction and Katie's drug, bad habit, or whatever analogy you wanna use. Sorry, Tara to waste your note space with my bullshit, but I don't feel like anyone gets what my pint is. I'm avoiding hanging out with them together because I know how upset I will be if I see them together and I know how I will react. I'm trying to keep myself from expressing my opinions to Katie (which you know is hard to do) because she is the best friend I've had in a long time and I don't want to lose that... I'm not bitter I'm frustrated and hurt by Katie's destructive decision making... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Bitter is an understatement (Anonymous) 2003-11-12 01:55 (link)
	Theres a revised version that make much more sense that I just posted in my diary if that didn't make much sense. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Gee, good to know what you think.... shotthruthehart 2003-11-12 06:53 (link)

Well well my dear, To be a sister, to be a friend, you must be supportive as well as protective. You say he treats me like shit, fucking prove it. I'm not going to sit back and let you criticize my decision making, because that's just what it is MY DECISION! You don't want to hang out with us, fine, you don't want to lie to me about how you feel, fine. Don't say anything then because when it comes to your overly blunt opinion I don't care. I don't care if you've been through it before, I don't care if you had a bad experience. That does not give you the right to declare me naive, blind or otherwise. Everyone's got to live their own life. So let me live mine. You want to be there for me, great. But at this point the one person you despise and hope that I will somehow get over has been there for me a hell of alot more than you have. Get over yourself, no one who's a true friend would act like this. Be happy that I'm happy, pretend It's not happening, I don't give a fuck what you do, just quit bitching and talking shit on your damn journal, ya you can "say what you like" but talk about something else. It's not your place to judge me for my forgiveness to my friends, you're right it is none of your business; just as your relationship is none of my concern. I love Jared just as much as....oh wait I think I love him more than you...oops, you prolly don't want to hear that huh? Lucky for you I have enough class not to bring other people into your personal life, even though you do it so well yourself. You care about me? I'd hope so, but don't use me and my relationships; no matter how much they may upset you as a cheap ploy for attention, face it girly he is my best friend......a sister would understand that, do you? I hate to be mean, because you're trying to be nice I suppose. But you've stated your opinion more than needed. It's pathetic to have so much animosity towards something I don't think you truely comprehend, one can use the word love as many times as they please but to be in love is a whole different concept. my being upset and hurt is what frustrates you? I haven't been this happy since before Ben and I got in a fight, so you have no point, you have nothing to get so worked up over. You were a friend to me before, why can't you be one now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sad but true... Think what you will.... storiesnalibis 2003-11-12 06:33 (link)

First of all, I was NOT in anyway, shape or form saying anything wrong. Therefore there is no need to write your non-sense here. I know your 'frustrated' and blah blah blah, but it has NOTHING to do with you. If you love Ben as much as you say you do, and you loves Katie like a sister, then I think you would be alot more understanding and not so dismal. Yes, they have fought and all that, but everyone gets hurt at one point in their lives. Just because it happened to you doesn't mean you should try to keep Katie from experiencing it for herself. If she didn't do the things she does she wouldn't be Katie. And she wouldn't be as stong as she is. It's the way Katie is and there is nothing you can do or say to change her or her decisions. What Katie does is for Katie do decide. Not me, not you, not anyone can tell her different. She fights for what she wants. And that's a good thing. But if you can't grasp the the facts then that is your own problem. Katie doesn't need a babysitter. She needs her friends. But feeble minds don't comprehend what is really going on here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sad but true... Think what you will.... storiesnalibis 2003-11-12 16:30 (link)
	It may appear that we are "ganging up" on you. However, like you, we are expressing how we feel about your reactions to Katie and Ben having a friendship. This is MY journal and I do with it what I please. If I wanna say something, I will. Just don't come on here and try to make it seem like you are right. Your not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sad but true... Think what you will.... (Anonymous) 2003-11-12 16:39 (link)

I'm not wasting my time to read this right now because I'm sick and going back to bed. Maybe, next time when I get up I will or maybe you should let me know to my face if it's that important. I love you both and don't wantto hurt you, but I had to say what I felt... Yeah, anyway, Katie Josh wanst you to come hangout with us tonite, but I'd understand if you don't want to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sad but true... Think what you will.... (Anonymous) 2003-11-12 16:42 (link)
	Okay, I tried to read it, but I can't... Don't tell me to not bitch in MY JOURNAL because that's what it is, My jurnal and if it ofends you, don't read it, but I shouldn't have to sugar coat my feelings in my own jurnal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)