I don't know what I want out of this time that I've been spending with my ex best friend.. Maybe I want to patch up what I couldn't patch up before. I think I help her so much and that she's better because of me, but she's better despite me. I can't do anything for her that she couldn't do herself, but I try. Half the time I have no idea why I try, why I care.. and neither does anyone else. I want to save her, to make her realize she's everything that everyone else isn't. She's going to be something great one day, and it won't be because I helped her it'll be because she realized she needed to help herself. I'm going to the game tonight and she'll be there, she won't talk to me, I know this already. We're both too immature for such conflict, and both have enough problems of our own. I don't know why I love her so much.. maybe it's because she thinks I'm sarcastic and isn't afraid to make me look like an ass in front of other people because of my sarcasim, or the way she doesn't like my shoes.. or because she helps me, I want to be better when I'm around her. There's no doubt in my mind that she can help me become who I want to be.. a better person
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