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seth (spineshank666) wrote,
@ 2003-07-28 22:20:00
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    Current mood:suicidal
    Current music:metalica

    sigh....................i wanna die that way i can leave this hell hole of a place they call earth...............................i commited my first act of murder today.................i killed a squirl..................mwhahahaha!......................sigh i have a boring life...........i wish michelle was here that way i can be with her and feel wanted in this world.......but i have no way to get there..............i need help........i dunno what to do......i wanna die and ive tried to kill my self almost did to but the wound wasnt bad enough..............through out my life ive tried to kill my self over 139 times.........sad isnt it.................i dunno whats keeping me here..............it could be the little hope i have left in my life that keeps me alive..........heh what am i thinking theres no one in my life that loves me that even cares for me...............im just another person in this world.......i mean what do i have to live for...my family? ha yeah right my family isnt a family ive been alone for almost 9 years now.............ive been lied to all my life...... i dont even really think michelle loves me cuz every time someone says that to me its a lie.........ive been hurt to much in my life.....i need someone......i have michelle.....but i cant see her so theres no one for me................i just dont know what to do



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(Anonymous)
2003-07-29 19:37 (link)
wow.....i feel as if i have just been stabbed through the heart.........u dont think i love u?? are u kidding? i love u soo much seth i would give anything to beable to be wit u....to see u more......god i wish i could be wit u every fuckin second of my life......but i cant and im sry.............but dont hurt urself please dont....u kno that if anything did happen to u i would go crazy.....that just shows how much i do love u (and by u killing urself..that would be leaving me and u promised u would never leave me).......think about wat can happen in the future......u will eventually be away from home an me an u can go off together an forget our pasts......forget everything that is hurting us rite now okay.........i promise.......just hang in there okay an wen u feel u have nothing...remeber....u have me....i do honestly love u seth
-michelle-

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(Anonymous)
2003-07-29 23:04 (link)
but....um....are u really gunna let the long distance ruin us? because i love u to much to let u go.....
-michelle-

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(Anonymous)
2003-07-30 21:12 (link)
no....im not going to let a long distance relationship hurt us

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