frances (shrubbery) wrote, @ 2004-05-06 23:26:00

Current mood:	awake
Current music:	"Jesus, Lover of My Soul" Rob Graves

cha-cha-cha-cha-changin'
So, I guess this is it. My first year of college is officially over. Finals taken. Everything moved out of my former home. Friends gone. Everything complete...and yet not. I've watched these people I've grown so close to pack up their things and move halfway across the country. Will it be the same next year? No it never is. And this again goes back to the question of why do I care so much that it won't be? I should embrace the change.

I feel as if I exist in two different worlds. One is college; classes, college friends, college attitudes, college responsibility. The other is high school; my old high school friends, my old high school jokes, my old high school...non-responsibility. It is so strange now to be in between. College friends gone and high school friends having not yet arrived. Then there are the friends that overlap between both high school and college, although sometimes I think it's difficult for them to understand me because they try to make me the person I once was and that's just not the way it is anymore. Sounds like I should take some of my own advice.

	ktea 2004-05-07 15:18 (link)
	I've thought this a few times, moreso last year. I'm probably one that does this to you, and I'm sorry. I certainly don't mean to, and sometimes I actively try to stop myself from thinking that way about you and other people. Nobody's the same. (Reply to this) (Thread)