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Hello you two! First of all I would like to say that I love you both with all of my heart and soul and I've been so lucky and blessed to have you as my parents.
The reason why I'm writing this instead of telling you is because I know I'll just start crying and won't be able to finish and say what I want to say.
I know you're only looking out for me, about htis college thing. but I want to tell you how I feel so maybe you can see it from my point of view. I don't want you to get upset or hurt but I just feel like I have to let you know this, otherwise we are going to just go on fighting because you don't know how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking.
You guys say... why don't you just go to UNLV for a year and save up some money. Well I wouldn't be saving anymore here than I would in Iowa. Because if I were to stay here and go for a year I would move in with some friends or live at the dorms. and by living here I would need a car right away too (unlike in iowa). The reasons why I would be moving out and not living at home isn't because I don't love you guys because I DO..it just all comes down to wanting and needing my independence. This is so hard...to find the words..because I love you guys so much and I know how sensitive you both are and I don't want to hurt your feelings And/or make you think you did a bad job at parenting...because you haven't! Not at all. You guys have done a great job. And that's just it. You did do a GREAT job! I am very smart girl who knows right from wrong, who shows manners, and is a lot more mature than others my age. Yet...I get tied down... like a chained up dog. And Dad... even though you have done such a good job with me and you know how much determination I have.. you still dont' have faith in me. I'm just anohter stastistic to you, one who will fail if I don't listen and do exactly everything you say and want. And that really really hurts me. but you know what that also gives me even more determination and faith in myself to prove you wrong. That I can suceed on my own with out you and/or mom doing everything for me.
I've worked so hard in school, so I could go to the college of my choice and follow and achieve my dreams. And you both have always told me to work hard and never give up on my dreams. Well I don't really want to wait around for Derrik again... I want to get on..do what I need to do and achieve my dreams. And one of them is to go to ISU! When I visited there, I just felt it...it was the right place for me. Some reasons why I want to go to Iowa State are:
Independence, on campus jobs available, cyride which means no car; so no car payments, no insurance, gas etc, $300 for food plus mealls (buffet), no rent (because planning on getting lots of scholarships, grants, and if I have to loans), very green/beautiful campus, close to family, good psychology program, church close by, nice dorms, creative writing classes, lots of clubs and activities, % off of a computer, nice people (students and administrators).
So if you can't tell I'm like so in love with the school. And I know it is the right thing for me. And I'm excited to be able to do things on my own, and actually being able to do things because I won't be tied down and being treated like a little kid instead of an adult.
I hope that you guys can understand a little bit more why I feel like I have to do this. I hope I didn't upset you guys. And I hope you know that I love you guys so very much. And I appreciate you raising me so well and for bieng such great parents.
Well I will let you guys go! Just reamember I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH! FOR ALL MY LIFE, FOREVER!
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hey girly! I READ THE LETTER AND IT SOUNDS REALLY GOOD, VERY PERSUASIVE, AND TO THE POINT AS WELL AS SWEET! u did a really good job and if this dosnt get um then i dunno what does, ill be praying for u tho and hopin the best for you! i luv ya hun!|
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