A Little More Information
Near the beginning of my posts, I mentioned that I had all but ruled out Sephiroth being another being merely using that appearance and name. And finally, I’ve gotten my hands on the book with the information to write this entry. I believe I told you all that I had accidentally had it packed into storage when I moved, and had to buy a new one.
And while this isn’t an uncommon book, I still had to order it in, and finally picked it up today, allowing me to write this entry – one of the first I had wanted to, but merely didn’t have the resource to do so.
And so, without further ado,
Spirits could lie using information they acquire through the [Akashic Hall] and the mental plane. For this reason, [one] needs to have a, accurate way of testing the identity of what he or she [encounters]. Luckily, there is an effective system for determining an entity’s identity. The first step of this process is for [one] to learn as much about an entity as possible before evoking it. Careful notes should be made of what type of entity it is, its office, the names of its superiors, its appearance, its talents, its areas of expertise, etc. Then when the entity appears, [one] should as it what its name is…If it answers correctly, than it may be who it says it is. If it gives you a name you never heard of, chances are its not. Sometimes an entity will answer in a kind of code. If you make an accurate list of the spirit’s known attributes, then even coded answers could make sense…But no matter what the spirit says, it is a good idea to put its identity to the ultimate test. Simply ask it to sign its name, either in a book you provide, in the air, or on the surface of an [evocation] mirror, if that is the type of evocation you’re performing (for an explanation of spirit signatures, see chapter 6). For some reason, entities cannot sign any other name besides their own. This is the most foolproof of all identification methods. ~ Konstantinos, Summoning Spirits
Okay, so I know that was a really long segment of text. The book this was taken from is actually on magickal evocation, and though I tried to edit out the information not really necessary, that’s the best I could do, so just ignore the references to the craft. Really, the last two sentences are all you need to read, though I felt having the rest of that segment typed out puts it into better context.
And at any rate, there you have it. Like I’ve mentioned in other entries, I have done what I can to confirm the identity of the being I’m wed to, and when I asked him to do this particular test, he did sign ‘Sephiroth.’
So that’s why I’ve mostly ruled out the possibility of him being someone other than who he says he is.
This is a fairly challenging thing to prove, as you may guess, because this is a field in which acquiring hard proof of what I say is all but impossible. Other metaphysical practitioners and researchers often have some way to prove what they see – ghost hunters have a whole mess of electronic equipment to pick up proof of ghostly presence…even the UFO, sasquatch and Loch Ness monster hunters have something to present as proof that what they believe exists does, in fact, exist.
My field, astral projection, is much harder to present hard proof of, which is why I’ve been going to all this trouble to use these references from other authors in my field, as well as in others, because really, that’s the best I’ve got for the time being.
I suppose this would be a good entry to mention that even though I am at a disadvantage for hard proof, I am searching for a way to physically prove myself. The problem I’ve been running into is that no matter what evidence I could potentially present if any of my ideas worked, proving the validity of said proof would be almost impossible, especially if I were putting it on the internet.
The reason I have this evocation book is that this seems to be a good way to potentially get some proof of my claims. The concept I believe this would work in would be if I could become skilled enough to perform a full-body evocation to the physical plane, I could theoretically take a photograph to prove Sephiroth’s existence.
But I can already hear what they would say about that. ‘You photoshopped that picture.’ ‘It’s fake.’ And even my main argument, that if I wanted to fake evidence I could have done so ages ago, wouldn’t do much to change minds.
Psychics I encounter often say they feel Sephiroth with me…even my current psychiatrist (whom I love for her interest in metaphysics and her background in psychic work) says she can feel him near me.
But that’s just spoken word, and I fear I may never be able to definitively prove myself.
I would like to hear what my readers think by way of other things I could try to present proof. I’ve been thinking about it so long I sincerely doubt I could think of anything new by this point…I’ve just been going in circles about the best approach.
But for the time being, I have this article, and I hope this entry has shed a little light on the situation.
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-07 16:01
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I'd like to see a picture, if that's at all possible. Not for you to prove yourself, just out of curriousity of what he looks like in the flesh. Also, are you two actually married? If so, how did that work XD?
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-07 16:09
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You mentioned a system of runes that he taught you. Could you go into detail about that? (M-chan) (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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2008-04-07 18:42
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At this point, I'm too flabbergasted by how much in here interferes with my skepticism, that I'm just gonna say it flat out without designing a neat, eloquent post.
Ghost/Bigfoot/Lochness monster hunters.........have no proof. They have lots of cute little gadgets which they are not using with full understanding of what they are for, and fuzzy photos, all of which can be explained quite realistically as misunderstandings, but no proof.
I might as well mention that astral projection has no proof. It has a small portion of the world population that think it's real and that they've experienced it, the same way ghost hunters think they know what they're doing, but you'd be surprised what kind of stuff people can convince themselves of, without hardcore evidence, mostly in the science and psychology department, which is all we have to rely on. Word of the mouth is sometimes, heck, usually faulty, because it's subjective. You. need. real. scientific. evidence that beings can deliberately push a nonphysical copy of themselves outside of their body and explore the universe. There isn't yet, because if there were, astral projection would not be a quirky new-age concept stashed away by itself at the top of the bookshelf, it would be fact, and everyone would be interested in it. I would like astral projection to be real. That's why I'm still reading the book and trying to figure it out. But liking something to be and it actually /being/ are worlds apart.
That's me being realistic, not trying to trample you down.
If I might suggest, you should check out Penn & Teller's show "Bullshit!" They're biased, but it's extremely thought-provoking. I was on the fence about magical type stuff until I saw it and realized I needed to wake up. They've had episodes covering Ghost hunting, Cryptozoology, ESP, Hypnosis, and explaining why they are...well...bullshit. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-08 16:41
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I must say that I find the idea of a total projection quite far fetched. I am no expert in this field, but I think nobody could accomplish this. As far as I understood, the fiber of the Astral Plane is fundamentally different from that of our known world. The material human body is thus incompatible with such a place and cannot access it. Much less bring a camera with it. It sounds a little absurd. Though if it were possible, it would definitely be interesting.
And since this entry focuses on the archangel, a topic which I seem to favor, I need to ask some questions once again.
1. The author you quoted claims that such entities can sign no name but their own. How do we know that is true? I do not see how 'superior' beings are restrained in that matter by such a simple fact. Maybe 'good' beings would not lie because it is not in their nature, but malevolent ones should have no problem deceiving like this.
2. Does the archangel know about the game character? If yes, doesn't he find it odd?
3. When did you realise he wasn't the game character? Did he ever explain to you that he was not the FF7 Sephiroth?
4. You said he has acces to the "Hall of Records". Aside that source, to what extent is he able to 'see' into the human world?
5. According to your description, he looks quite human. Just how human do people look on the Astral Plane? Does hair/eyelashes fall, do nails get chipped, do you get bruised etc. ?
6. How would you describe his face? Does he ever sneeze/cough/get incommodated by something (just like a human)? Do you?
7. Did he ever display superhuman speed/strength?
8. When you first met him, how was he dressed? AC wasn't released at that time, so how did you know it was Sephiroth?
9. Would it technically be impossible for Sephiroth to reach the first layer?
10. Does he ever speak of other Astral beings (any other archangels)?
11. From what you say, Sephiroth excels in combat. What other areas does he excel in?
12. What register does he use when he speaks?
13. Did he ever say a fact about you that you did not tell him beforehand?
14. Can he 'read' your emotions? Can you 'read' his?
15. Does he have a particular topic he likes to talk about? What about you?
Sorry for this long, long post... questions tend to gather in my hand quite fast. I think it wiser to save those connected to the Astral Plane for another time. (M-chan)
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-08 18:27
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That's quite alright, thank you.
In the question about his register I meant how he uses language and his choice of words (academic, casual, street talk etc.). And he observes things that are going on here on Earth? What events does he find interesting?
I think I just broke a question record on this Blurty. Probably my own. But I did warn you. :D(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-09 02:09
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Julia, I think one thing you are overestimating is human capabilities. Quoting these books and those books, you seem to swear by them, despite the very simple fact that humans have long been incapable of "mastering" anything metaphysical.
Much of the metaphysical world is closed off to humanity. It's as simple as that. Even the most "masterful" human is overall very ignorant. Many people don't even know the truth of what they are doing to the full extent, and a lot of it ends up in doors being opened that should have remained closed.
There are so many differing accounts on metaphysical subjects. Elementals, for example, are something that I've found numerous sources on and none of them really seem to coincide. Some people have many different methods of say, casting a spell, and people will claim one or the other works or doesn't. This is all because humans have such limited understanding of what they are doing. They may not know why it works, just that it does.
Your spirit being only able to write his "true name" is a good example. Even "Konstantinos" offers no explanation and quite frankly doesn't seem to understand it himself.
Because you can't definitively know who or what your spirit truly is, he probably isn't even what you think. It's just as likely he is a being manifested from your subconcious that you unknowingly created in your time of need. Because you believe he is what you think he is, he believes it also. And I'm judging this from accounts I've heard and read about that supposedly happened to others, and thus using your logic it is entirely a possibility.
I for one was once interested in spellcasting and paranormal practices, but lost interest after I realized no one really knew what they were talking about because no one can even agree on one simple thing. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-09 15:42
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As promised, here are the questions connected to the Astral Plane:
1. How are the layers of the Astral Plane different from each other? Can you describe them more? Did you ever get lost?
2. Why do you wish to ascend to layer five, and why do you find it difficult to proceed upwards? What do you feel is stopping you?
3. Is there even the slightest chance that you may not be able to return to your body? What happens if you don't want to return at all?
4. Can you recreate music on the Astral Plane? Can you play a musical instrument there (you can play the flute, right?)?
If these questions make it to the Q&A post, I would very much appreciate to read the full answers to the archangel related ones. I did not think about the 3500 characters limitation... >_< (M-chan) (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-11 18:07
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I'm sure you've heard of otakin and have a decent idea of their beliefs about alternate universes, media, and the like.
Way back when you were first writing in your Blurty, you also seemed to have similar beliefs, at least in the sense you were talking about Sephiroth and Hojo dying, and acted as if everything in FFVII had actually happened. So I guess my question is what happened to that train of thought you were riding for a while? It seems now you don't acknowledge the theories as anything more than a possibility since you discovered what Sephiroth actually was, but maybe I'm wrong. So do you still believe that the FFVII universe is an alternate universe?(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-23 05:23
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you are twisted.... what you speak of cannot be done. other than the fact that you seem to have an over-active imagination, coupled with serious health problems, and that you have gone between using psychotropic medicines of who knows what nature, AND trying to overdose on who knows what substances...your brain and body chemistry must be fubar. I believe you are lost in your own world of hallucinations and dreams that you just justify with all the information you have "researched" on parallel universes, paradoxes, alternate planes of existence, and a whole bunch more drivel that no human being can actually ever access and was written by intuitive people in days past where serious psych conditions could not be diagnosed or really treated for that matter, or by crazies in society today who share drug induced dreamlike states (wheither you are on the drugs at the time or not). How can you actually convince yourself you are with let alone married to someone you have to meditate and dream up who is but is not a videogame character or angel or whatever you dreamed up? and marridge is something that only happens on EARTH realm in the real world on this plane, your "non traditional marrige" cannot exist because as you said it is not like marrige on earth, but that is the only place where marrige exists so that means that marrige is defined by the way it is here, and if its not like that then it isnt marrige or being married....so what then you are just perpetually sprung on your own creation who has a "job" but doesnt tell you about it....and talks about toads and things on earth only like wars and such...which you probably heard on the news but werent listening to...which explains why he never has anything truely original to say.....im just amazed by what ive read tonight because it shows me just how messed up other stupid people are which makes me fear for the future of our species... your dreamworld doesnt exist... you are a human being and as such your job is to procreate and reproduce to add your seed to the ever changing gene pool and human DNA model, or suffer natural selection not finger yourself while daydreaming your married to a pseudo videogame villan...and if you dont your family lineage will die out....which is probably good for your type...people like you make sephiroth look like a homo, and as a figure to be despised because of his un-necessary popularity...Adam G (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-04-27 22:26
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Anonymous;
You may find that typing properly would aid your audience in understanding you. Your arguments are lost amid run-on sentences, lack of punctuation, and no capitalization to speak of. I'm impressed that Julia made it through your posts.
As for your comments, it appears that you take neither a strictly scientific nor spiritual point of view, instead mixing very pragmatic views about the purpose of humanity (procreation) with the entertainment of psychic doomsday predictions.
It's true that the primary function of living things is to survive long enough to pass on their genetic material and in some cases care for their offspring before passing on and contributing to the food chain or life cycle of the planet. However, while most of the world's creatures do not deviate from their instinctual role, humans frequently act in ways that seem illogical to the rest of the universe. Suicide? Abstinence? Celibacy? Perhaps the truest way to assert our independence as higher beings is to rebel against the path evolution has prescribed for us. Besides, if you're honestly worried about one girl's lack of future offspring, I point you towards the overpopulation in India and China. I'm quite certain that the planet has all the humans it can handle, and then some.
Conversely, if you're willing to take psychic powers and religion seriously, both entirely without scientific basis, I don't understand why you express doubt about Julia's claims. It's hypocrisy.
You ask what Julia's experiences with Sephiroth are doing to help her, but I instead inquire "What are they doing to harm her?" Aside from the skepticism and criticism of detractors, Julia's life doesn't seem to be affected for the worse because of her lover. She draws strength and happiness from his presence. Not so different from garnering hope or meaning from a religious deity, is it? From what I've seen, Julia appears to be a fully-functioning and productive member of society, with work, school, friends, passions, and future aspirations. That's surely more than you can say for countless other more "normal" people.
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(Anonymous)
2008-05-22 00:16
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Hi, Julia.
You know, I was one of those people who first read your journal with utter skepticism. Travel out of your body to another plane? See a video game character there who you married? It all seemed like too much. I initially dismissed everything as ridiculous/you being ill, and went on my merry way.
Things changed.
A year or so after, I started to notice odd things were happening to me. Feeling like I was falling when I was lying perfectly still in bed; being able to accurately describe things that happened when I was out cold, so there was no way I could have known what was going on; speaking to a deceased family member.
I looked it all up, and it appeared that perhaps I wasn't inadvertently astral projecting, but I was definitely having OBEs.
I've started to research this stuff extensively in hopes of gaining control over this ability of mine, because I'd always been confused/a bit freaked out about those odd happenings in the past.
Which brings me to a question about you and Sephiroth.
Recently I've been reading a book by someone named Robert Monroe, who apparently has several books published about OBEs and astral projection (though I don't know if he's a good source or not). He mentions a situation when he was meeting a nonhuman being who decided to take on the appearance of something recognizable in order to make the narrator more comfortable during the meeting. Even when the narrator insisted the being could be "as they usually are", the being insisted just as much on being this recognizable character. The person the being had taken on was a fictional character.
This struck a chord with me, as it reminded me of you and Sephiroth. You seem to have recognized that your Sephiroth is NOT the Sephiroth of the video game, but besides you saying that you were wrong in your assumption, you never went into how you REALIZED you were wrong.
I'm curious... do you think your Sephiroth took on the guise of the video game character initially so as to get you used to him? You have mentioned that he knows about FF7, so that's why I didn't think it would be too much of a stretch. If this is the case, do you ever wonder if he might be holding anything else back about "who he really is"? Obviously his occupation, but...
I'm babbling, so I'll try to wrap this up quickly. One more question, that you've probably answered elsewhere: have you ever had any other situation in the astral plane where you met a being who took on such a recognizable shape? Does it happen often, or very rarely?
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2008-06-19 22:09
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When I stepped... out... into the bright... sunlight... from the darkness of the movie house, I had only two things on my mind: Paul Newman, and a ride home... (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-07-08 06:58
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Good day Julia.My name is Alex.I'm very curious to hear your story and about Astral projection.I tried to sent you e-mail on your mail box,but my yahoo,don't want to send anything for some reason,is there is a way and chance how I can ask my questions,if it's won't bothering you and you have a time off cause.I'll be very happy.This is very interesting to try,but I'm a bit afraid.So can we talk more privet?I just don't want you to be attack again from others sides,because of my questions and I'm a bit afraid to ask about it here.And you already know about ED,what a horrible place,I'm afraid if someone use that information against you.
Hope you'll response and have a nice day.
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2008-07-26 01:42
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ok when you say (or the book to be more specific ) "Spirits could lie using information they acquire through the [Akashic Hall] and the mental plane. For this reason, [one] needs to have a, accurate way of testing the identity of what he or she [encounters]." does this meen that you could run into a person/creature/being that isn't an angel? (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-07-26 02:13
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So I have been reading some of the things you have been writing (while not all of it because there IS a lot of it before-and after you changed things a little) and I am fascinated because my nephew seems to be starting out the way you did with all of this so I want to look into it a little before I try sending him on his merry way
#1When you say that your archangel is an angel - Do you mean guardian angel or do you mean literally an archangel as in the rank OF the angels? And when you say this do you mean (I am assuming from other things that you have said) one of Gods angels. I know you are catholic and I was always under the impression that Angels were set specifically to love -and only love- God. So I suppose what I am trying to get at is when you say he is an angel is it a term YOU use for him or, is he actually one of Gods Angels?
#2 here is another sort of religious one. I personally am not at all superstitions-pretty down to earth if you will : ) But reading some things that you have written I was wondering has it ever occurred to you that perhaps one of the higher plains is in fact heaven and that is where your angel comes from? I know I am looking at this from a more religious point of view but to be completely honest that is the only way I know how to look at this. Anyway often times you hear about people dieing and being brought back to life and after this talking about experiencing something somewhat familiar with what you have been describing (if you want to look into that I believe one book is called Life after life) only they hit it after they have died so maybe you are more in tuned with your soul/spirit/GA
# 3 Is there any huge risk he could get hurt/go mad/ somehow be put in danger in one of these worlds?
And finally (whoooo sorry that was long)
Could you write down a list of the best books you have read so far to describing about this phenomenon and also how to try to achieve doing this (I probably can’t but if I could scope it out for him first I am going to try. OR hey they could maybe help him if this is what is going on.) Anyway SORRY I know I asked a lot!!
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(Anonymous)
2008-08-06 02:13
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i think this is all a bunch of bullshit. you're a schizo off your meds and you are handicapped by this delusion of a video game character visiting you from some dream world.
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(Anonymous)
2008-08-09 22:52
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My friend brought my attention to your site and story and I have become intrigued. Over time, I have developed my own ideas that the "so-called" metaphysical world is the result of highly focused minds which either have a need to alter reality, or have such a strong belief in something, that they consequently need it to exist or occur in order for their world as they see it to be understandable. I can explain the roots of my reasoning further if you so wish, but at the time I'd rather get to my point/hypothesis. I have not read all of your posts, so I may not have the complete story under my belt to work with, but I think I've got the gist. You mentioned that you fell hopelessly in love with Sephiroth as a character, and yet you knew that that was an impossible situation to resolve. You then became suicidal, yet you could not overpower your body's will to live. At this point, your mind was forced with the ultimatum of having to cope with reality. I believe that at this point, your mind conjured a new reality that you could live which would ultimately allow you to continue on living a normal life while retaining your sanity. At this point, my theory about the reality of the metaphysical world must come into play. Your mind needed a reality where you could be with Sephiroth in order to survive intact. Thus, it created that reality. My theory is connected with the common statistic that human's only use somewhere around 10% of our brains. If the mind deems it necessary to use more of the brain for the sake of survival, it can accomplish feats which would, to the passing observer, appear to be, metaphysical. As far as your psychiatrist and some others being able to feel the presence of Sephiroth, I'm a bit sketchy on how that would work out. My best guess would be that you needed others to feel that he existed and your mind made it happen. I'm curious to hear what you think of my hypothesis. From what I can tell, you seem to be a very rational person, so...... props to you, I guess. I'm not sure where I was going with that. I guess I just wanted to let you know that I believe that you are experiencing what you say you are, I'm just presenting another possible explanation for it. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-08-11 14:22
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I just found your blog into from your DA page, now I don't have the time to read the posts at the moment, work coming soon and all, so I'll read through it after work or on a day off, and I have no means for attacking your beleifs. I mean why would I? I consider myself a soulbonder and an otherkin. I was curious on some things though, what is your take on the soul bonding community as of now? Do you consider yourself a soulbonder to this day?
You might have already been asked on this? Heh, I do apologize for any announce I may have caused.
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(Anonymous)
2008-10-06 20:04
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I have a question:
Do you ever plan on having kids with him? Or... since he is a completely different being compared to you, you guys can't have them?(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2008-10-11 06:26
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Hey, when can we expect the next post? :) Not trying to push, just wondering what's up.
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(Anonymous)
2008-11-10 22:54
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Okay. Here's the thing.
Sephiroth are angels. They are a type of angel attributed to the Kabbalah. They are associated with the Tree of Life in Kabbalah teachings.
It is not a character from a videogame, first of all. That MIGHT be what he looks like, though, since you associate "Sephiroth" with the FFVII character.
And second, Konstantinos is a laughing stock amongst people in the Pagan community, and I should know. I wouldn't take him seriously if I were you.
Please please please listen to me, since isn't a flame post or anything, I want to help you.
Your Friendly Neighborhood Shaman,
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(Anonymous)
2008-11-10 23:07
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Nevermind, see in here you already know it's some type of Angel, at least.
But I still don't really think it's Sephiroth the Videogame Character.
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2008-11-11 04:15
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Please read her entries more carefully before expressing your opinion. One of the main points of her Blurty is that her Sephiroth is NOT the game character. (M-chan) (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2009-03-25 02:23
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Hey Julia - wow, this blog is incredibly unique, as are you and your situation. It's so interesting to hear about, though, I look forward to your updates. You know, even if some people would say bull-crap, I think most of us would love to see a picture! I find this all incredibly interesting (I've been meaning to look up some of the books you've cited... once school lets up! @__@), and I'm really curious what a CG character looks like as a real person. ^^ Anyway, don't let the lamers get you down!
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