*cries* awww come on man! do me this ONE friggin favor! oooo by the way! matt looks GOOD in a beenie! haha! sorry had to say that.. dont know why.. anyways! kill me god dammit! ... then again, you could just take me to club oxygen and give me a few tabs :) even though it wouldnt kill me, i'd have a DAMN good time. keep that in mind, would yah? *wink*
BLAH! matt did look good last night. we should of followed him and put him in your trunck. hehe that would of kicked ass! i can't wait till we go to cc again. maybe if i have enough money from my next check we can go. see if you can get some money from mommy and we'll see whats up. i wanna go soo bad. and this time i can take that visa card and go crazy with it. hehehe. as of right now i only have $15 to my name. sucks to pay bills man. if it wasn't for those bills we would be in cc. sucks man.
OMG why didnt i think about putting matt in the trunk?! whats wrong with me?! dammit!! that would have been so bad ass dude! oh yeah! i wonder if he wants to roll with me any time soon... eh.. i doubt it. that was probably boring for him.. unless you have some inside information that you need to let me in on.. do yah? do yah? hehe. j/k. tomorrow i will be looking for a damn job and i'm going to settle for whoever calls me back dude. i want to get the hell out of here. mom is putting our house for sale in the paper tomorrow. do you want her to get a 3 bedroom apartment or do you just want me and her to go ahead and get a 3 beedroom and then me and you save up money to get our own place? let me know! :) i think me and mom have a pretty busy day ahead of us.. *grunt* that sucks. i need to get to bed... hahaha! yeah like thats going to happen!
i dunno man, shit is so confusing now. i want to get my own place without a parent there but if your mom gets an apt with you then your just going to leave her hanging. that wouldn't be right. i'm thinking of trying to find a full time job since i'm not going to school next semester and saving up a lot of cash and see what happens from there. i'm trying not to rush things, but they might have to be rushed. i don't know if i can last too much longer living under my sisters roof if you know what i mean. espically with luke acting the way he has lately. i'm kinda glad mel might not leave town. kinda scared how he would act. its getting that bad. thats why when he's here i'm gone no matter where that place is. i'm there man. i hate doing that though cause then he asks me "are you mad at me" or "what did i do to make you mad". shit like that. i don't even know how i got on that subject but o'well.
eh fuck it dude, life goes on.. or does it? yeh.. i think it just might. i think as soon as you get out of your sisters apartment you'll be a lot better off. i cant believe how luke is acting. whats up with him? he shouldnt be acting like that. he really shouldnt. go kick him. thats what i would do! haha! i think mom and i are just going to grab an apartment thats 2 bedroom and then you and i can worry about getting a place later. i have to think about mom man. where is she going to go? i know that she doesnt want to live by herself in an apartment. i think that to her that makes her think that shes a failure. i mean, yeah, she has a bad ass job that pays a hell of a lot of money, but shes got too many bills. i know that her dream was to live in a REAL house. not an apartment. but hey, i guess you take what you can get. life sucks but you just have to deal with it right? everyone says that life goes on, but we wont really know until we just move on, will we? eh.. dont you hate thinking too much? i've been doing that a lot lately, as you can see from my live journal. i must stop that! oooh dude! mom took her carton of cigarettes and put them in her room somewhere! sissy and sam are asleep in there so i can go in there.. I'M SCREWED! *cries* i need to go to bed... i keep saying that but i take no action...