Janushka's Pudding Pie (seamonkeyswrath) wrote, @ 2003-08-19 20:40:00

Current mood:	cynical
Current music:	The Leaving Song Pt II- AFI

SOMEONE MAKE ME STOP WHINING, PLEASE, NOW, I REALLY REALLY WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT VERY MUCH SO!!
This world hates me. I swear. I don't know what I did to it. I jsut did SOMETHING bad enough as to get it furious at me. Ok, how am I pretty? I just don't see it. How am I that great? I don't see it. Why are people abandoning me? Why don't people care about me anymore? Why don't people care about me in the first place? Did I say something wrong? Was it something I did, or didn't do? Please tell me. I'll change. I want you to like me. I want to fit in. I want to be your friend. I know I mean nothing to you, but I want to. I always do something wrong, please tell me what it is, I won't do it again. I want to be your best friend. But no one gets it, do they? Why is everyone judging me? Why is everyone staring at me? And why is no one paying attention to me at the same time? I want to be heard, I want to be loved, I want to have friends, I don't want to be laughed at. I just want to be someone special. I just want people to like me. I'm weak like that. It's just not fair. I just wish I had a chance to be who I really am, and hang out with who I want to hang out with. Maybe the world is jsut spinning too fast for me. Maybe I should just sail to the edge of the world, and jump off. It might solve a lot of problems, and I'd bother less people. It would hurt people, but they'd move on. They'd forget I even existed. "Jessica.....who? You mean that annoying shy mexican girl with the wierd hair who hangs out with freaks?" I hear my name in the crowd. I turn my head. No one's talking to me. It makes me feel like a nobody. Probably cause I am one. An annoying little nobody who fucks everything up and is worthless. You think I like this life? This life of constant self-hatred? Who could love someone like me? I have yet to find this out. Who could love someone who whines as much as me? And how come whatever I try to do is wrong? I just don't get it.......can someone help me out here? Why does someone like me care about all these things?

	(Anonymous) 2003-08-19 22:10 (link)
	x.x;; *sniff* I love you despite your whining. and you are beautiful, and pretty, and lovely, and stuff. ^_^ --Eric P.S. Ring shall be cool looking...... to me anyway. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	theukrainianone 2003-08-19 22:30 (link)
	aww sweetie don't be like that...shit will get better...believe it or not most people are going through all that...i know i am...call me when you wanna whine some more..i'm very serious...i encourage it actually...516-5217 love you, lizard (formally known as liz) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	pcookie718 2003-08-22 16:57 (link)
	aww! its okay...things will be better..its just the freshman thing and the highschool thing..and the...thing thing..and now i dont no wat im talkin about..but tha's okay..everyone feels that way...EVERYONE! trust me. and happy birthday!! ur 14 now..congratz~~~cookie (Reply to this) (Thread)