Janushka's Pudding Pie (seamonkeyswrath) wrote, @ 2003-08-12 22:27:00

Current mood:	frustrated
Current music:	The Leaving Song by AFI

High school is bad for my health. o.o;;
SCHOOL. SUCKS. BUTT.

BIO: BORING
LIT: BORING
LUNCH: now, that period isn't as bad....
BAND: GET ME THE FUCK AWAY FROM TAYLOR!!!!
SPANISH: Well, that class is soon to change.....
ANTHRO: OMG, I FUCKING HATE THAT GUY! SOMEONE HELP ME KILL HIM NOW!
GEOMETRY: I think I might actually like Math this year......but then again, first impressions are always lies......
HOMEROOM: Now, that class isn't that bad......
FRESHMAN EXPERIENCE: PLEASE, HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT THE POINT OF THAT CLASS IS!

SCHOOL SUCKS. ITS NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT, BUT IT STILL SUCKS. I KNOW I HAVE IT TEN TIMES EASIER THAN SOME OTHER PEOPLE, BUT STILL. IT STILL SUCKS. I HAVE NO CLASSES WITH YARI, BIANKA, OR DANIELLE. I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO DANIELLE IN SO LONG, I GET THE FEELING WE AREN'T GOING TO BE THAT CLOSE THIS YEAR, WHICH I HOPE ISN'T WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN. PEOPLE AREN'T LIKING ME. I TRY TO BE NICE, AND FRIENDLY, AND NOT SHY, BUT NO SUCH LUCK. I'M STILL ANTI-PEOPLE. NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR SAY, IT SEEMS TO BE THE WRONG THING. MY MOTHER IS SUPER MAD AT ME AND I HATE IT. I'M FORCED TO GO TO CHURCH NOW. I DON'T WANT THESE THINGS. I'M SO FRUSTRATED. I NEED HELP. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THIS IS ALL GOOD, AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THIS IS HELL. SOMEONE, PLEASE, TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER SOON ENOUGH. I KNOW I COULD HAVE THIS WORSE, BUT YOU KNOW ME. I TEND TO WHINE. I TEND TO NEED THINGS TO BE EASY FOR ME. I'M DAMN SPOILED. I'VE BEEN STARVING MYSELF FOR NO REASON. MY MOTHER HAS TO MAKE BREAKFAST FOR ME! AND THEN SHE BRINGS IT UP TO MY ROOM AND WATCHES ME EAT, JUST TO MAKE SURE I DO! I EAT LIKE NOTHING FOR LUNCH, BUT WHEN IT'S DINNER TIME, I EAT LIKE A PIG. I NEED HELP. A THERAPIST. A LIFE. YES, I KNOW, ITS NOT AS BAD AS I THINK IT IS, BUT I DON'T CARE. MY EYE IS TWITCHING UNCONTROLLABLY AND IT WONT STOP. I'M GOING BLIND. I'M ALWAYS LONELY. I HATE SCHOOL. SUMMER HAS SWALLOWED ME WHOLE AND REFUSES TO SPIT ME OUT. I KEEP THINKING THIS WILL ONLY LAST A FEW DAYS. THEN I REALIZE THAT I HAVE TO HAVE ALL THAT FOR A WHOLE SEMESTER IF NOT THE WHOLE YEAR, AND THEN IT FEELS REAL. TOO REAL. AND WHY DO I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME?! WHY DO I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS JUDGING ME?! MAKE IT STOP! SOMEONE HELP ME! COMFORT ME! GAAAH! GODDAMNIT! I DON'T SEEM TO BE MAKING MANY NEW FRIENDS, AND THE PEOPLE I DO BECOME FRIENDS WITH, I SEEM TO DO SOMETIHNG WRONG. DAMNIT. I JUST WANT SCHOOL TO EEEEEEEND!!! I SEEM TO BE LOSING FRIENDS, LIKE BIANKA, AND DANIELLE AND STEPHANIE, AND YARI, AND OTHER PEOPLE THAT MY MIND HAS TURNED THE SWITCH OFF ABOUT. I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE SO ALONE ALL THE TIME. I CAN'T TAKE IT. THIS IS SO DIFFERENT, AND SO SCARY. MY GOD.

	kitsune68 2003-08-13 18:57 (link)
	awww, cheer up. You'll start enjoying highschool. Freshman year just seems to be the worst. =\ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2003-08-13 21:29 (link)
	I agree completely.... Both that sachool sucks, and that it will get better. Just remember I'm alays here fore you no matter what... Unless you drop me for Tim. *kills Tim* -.-;; (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)