⣣ í §èè î§ dêâd wîñg§... (scabbed__wings) wrote, @ 2003-04-04 19:17:00

Current mood:	confused
Current music:	Sweet White Lies\\Keepsake

[.Lack Of Updatin'
Blah, sorry I haven't been updating, I've just been having too great of a week to even get online. Me and Pat are great, me and Megan are of course great. Everything is! Except today, I kept daydreaming in Mathclass about things...and the more I think about it, the more I just want to explode! I have to get it out somehow...

[.The Problem
Okay, this may sound immature...but I really think that someone might come between me and Pat. I asked him last night if anyone would and he said "No, of course not!" and everything...but still. It's that Kris chick, since Monday he's been talking about how much he talks to her, how he has a good time with her, and how they 'flirt'. I know when people are flirting, and whenever you make fun of someone, or chase someone around...c'mon now. Her looks are nasty and all, but I asked him who he would choose between someone and her, and he picked her right away. Maybe I'm just too overprotective...or I'm just jealous. Whenever he talks about her, I just fake a smile and act interested to hear about it. I've tried to be nice to her, smile and say hi and everything. She made him this black and red bracelet, and I wanted a black and white one, and a pink and black one..so she was nice enough to make me one, but she made Pat pay for mine, giving his to him for free. She's going to his band practices now....God, what am I even here for? The sex?...it just...gets to me that she'll turn out to be his best friend instead of me being that...and that he has a better time with her then me. God, I worry too much..and that's exactly why I'm not telling him what's on my mind. I just act happy around him and all. Surpisingly he hasn't noticed that I'm faking it. If I tell him what I think about him and Chris, he'll say "Oh, you're stupid..shut up...no one will come between us...she's just my friend..I love you not her" I believe it, but I know that he won't understand from my point of view. Megan understands perfectly, I'm just scared to tell him because he might get pissed and make a fight out of it. God I have trust issues, I trust him don't get me wrong. It's just her, you know how us girl's are. We won't stop until we get what we want...and he even told me that at the beginning of the year that she liked him, but backed off because of how long we've been dating. It just really gets under my skin and makes me wonder if he's starting to get feelings for her, or not. I hope I actually make sense to somehow, and not just ramble on and on..- sigh -

	motherfawker 2003-04-05 01:44 (link)
	Why don't you tell Pat exactly how you feel? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	starsinmyeyes 2003-04-05 05:38 (link)
	That sucks... But I think also..itÄs the best to tell Pat your feelings and thoughts (Reply to this) (Thread)

	killyourradio 2003-04-17 12:24 (link)
	add me back here? sorry, my friends list was being dumb :x (Reply to this) (Thread)

	inviisible 2003-06-06 21:48 (link)
	errr ; hi! you knew meh on your other blurty, and now you dont update itt....so will you take me off the friendz list of that one, and add me to this one? cuz i hate seeing mah friends not updating ;x (Reply to this) (Thread)

	xlevelled27x 2003-06-07 15:55 (link)
	If she tries anything, I'll have her wacked I mean.. just tell her to back off. -nods- Want me to hang her on a flagpole by the underpants and call her Nancy? X3 (Reply to this) (Thread)

	blue_stars 2003-06-13 09:53 (link)
	hey i got a new username add gurlie please (Reply to this) (Thread)