Say You Love Me (sayyouloveme) wrote, @ 2004-03-14 00:53:00

Rejection
Rejection is something that makes you realize that maybe you are just wasting your time. That nothing that you ever do will ever quite be good enough. It is when you let yourself free and then get stabbed in the back. It is when you finally trust and then the truth comes out.

That is how I feel right now. Rejected.

It isn't a big issue. It shouldn't be an issue at all. I don't know why I feel so hurt over some stupid little incident. I just really feel hurt.

If I felt like he really wanted to go, I would seriously drive down there to get him. That is why I called him, to suggest that. Then I realized that he probably just didn't want to go. I understand that, but it still hurts.

Friends just suck. They will never be there when you want them to be.

Twice this week I have been let down by my friends, and I am just downright disapointed.

At least I have my Dante Dog. He has never let me down. He is the bestest boy in the whole wide world.

Every incident like this reminds me that I shouldn't trust people. I will always get hurt. I will never be one of those lucky people. I will be that stepping stone for everyone to use to better themselves.

It also makes me realize how selfish I am. The world does not revolve around me. I am not special. I do not deserve to have friends actually be there.

I am a whiner. I don't want this to be one of those guilt trip things. It is just an explanation of my current feelings.

So don't apologize. You have done it, and it won't make things better to me right now.

I just need to think.

	hunnypot81 2004-03-18 01:59 (link)
	baby girl, if you need me you just tell me when and where and if I'm not at one of my two jobs or in class, i'm THERE.... just call.... 80% of effort is showing up and I always show up.... love you! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	SORRY sayyouloveme 2004-03-18 09:17 (link)
	Speaking of not going places. Sorry that I didn't go to the Saint Patrick's Day band playing. I had to go out on a double date to try to hook up with Erica. I kind of forgot about it when I talked to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: SORRY hunnypot81 2004-03-18 18:09 (link)
	Oh honey, that comment had NOTHING to do with st paddy's day... I honestly just meant I'd be there whenever you needed.... I hope you had as much fun as i did last night! but now, i must go home and sleep... and then get up and work some more... and then sleep, and then get up and work some more.... and then.... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)