Rejection is something that makes you realize that maybe you are just wasting your time. That nothing that you ever do will ever quite be good enough. It is when you let yourself free and then get stabbed in the back. It is when you finally trust and then the truth comes out.
That is how I feel right now. Rejected.
It isn't a big issue. It shouldn't be an issue at all. I don't know why I feel so hurt over some stupid little incident. I just really feel hurt.
If I felt like he really wanted to go, I would seriously drive down there to get him. That is why I called him, to suggest that. Then I realized that he probably just didn't want to go. I understand that, but it still hurts.
Friends just suck. They will never be there when you want them to be.
Twice this week I have been let down by my friends, and I am just downright disapointed.
At least I have my Dante Dog. He has never let me down. He is the bestest boy in the whole wide world.
Every incident like this reminds me that I shouldn't trust people. I will always get hurt. I will never be one of those lucky people. I will be that stepping stone for everyone to use to better themselves.
It also makes me realize how selfish I am. The world does not revolve around me. I am not special. I do not deserve to have friends actually be there.
I am a whiner. I don't want this to be one of those guilt trip things. It is just an explanation of my current feelings.
So don't apologize. You have done it, and it won't make things better to me right now.
I just need to think.
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