A real updated: loved. Pregnancy pics, pool pics, etc.
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Yep. I'm 24 weeks and 1 day pregnant (from the due date they give me)
I took this shot yesterday and put this on my myspace....
We have a beautiful family that fills my heart with more love than anyone could imagine. I was meant to love, them... and never have a question in the world if my life should have ever turned out differently.
Summer Fun
But first some recaps, I have not wrote a thing here in ages!
Big Man graduated (as well as little man) but he is going into middle school next year!
Two photos of me and my big old pregnant self before the pool pics. These were last weeks pics at 23 weeks. I'm doing an update every week on my myspace with the pregnancy.
Brandon-Avery hamming it up for the camera.
All of our kids splashing Joe.
I kept making him retake the photo cause I couldn't get my camera to cooperate with the lighting. LOL he looks pleased :P
My beautiful boyfriend. Sometimes I just want to lick him from head to toe. Rawr! ;)
All the kids having fun in the sun. Jayden in the front posing.
Joey is about to throw Brandon in. Jon is looking on laughing.
The jump
Our new cutting board
We had so much fun at the pool and I got to relax but still be involved with the family I loved it!
That last shot Joe made us a gorgeous cutting board out of maple.. and get this he made it with 16 pieces of wood.. our number.. it represents "I love you" he brought it home the other night when I felt my most ill.. and made me smile for days.
Beautiful family...itt is beyond the truth. Joe and I had a really rough patch back in the day when we were "dating" i'm not really like that. I didn't date anyone else at all and while I wish that were the case with him, it wasn't. Finally after realizing that we were very much in love it has just been us.. I was raised very different and while I know many will say.. dating is dating dont' worry about it, that is NOT me. I was crushed to find out some of the people he dated (before I was pregnant of course LOL)or what have you and while it truly broke my heart [specially that two of the gals KNEW how I felt about him and still tried to date him!least he didn't go that route.. that is when he knew it was to just be him and I) I know that we are solid and him and I are "it" and as talks have been going lately I believe one of these days I might have more news :)
Back in the day I got a lot of heat from my friends staying with Joe as we were so .. in between and I was more involved than he was to begin. They thought I was getting played because he was so quiet and not open about how much he cared and such. That was him and I understood on some level. I also knew that he was the kind to take a long time to make a decision in the relationship area.. even if I was all gun-ho with others it doesn't always work that way. His past is sorted and like myself he was hurt very badly and I have a few years of healing time on him. It took him ages to trust me and realize I didn't want to ever hurt him, that my heart was pure.. that I in the end have and always will love him. The right way.. that until I met him I didn't know what love was... It hurt me that my friends would not accept I "knew" .. but I did. When he walked into my life even through all the bullshit and hurt and such, I knew he could not walk out. When we separated for some time it was some of the darkest moments of my life. I felt like my heart was not in my body, and when he called me all those times when he was not "mine" i couldn't even speak with him. Tears would choke me up and I couldn't even pick up the cell phone. Those moments I knew there had to be a way for us to be. Eventually he asked me out to dinner and I went just to try to have my life get back to normal. Him as my friend was going to have to be it, because I refused for him to be out of my life. I walked in that diner and that was the night I snapped a photo and knew.. KNEW what love was. After that we hung out almost every night and it was all out from there. Eventually we started to date again, and it went from there.. and finally we were open about "us" to everyone not just on my side .. from his side. Our friends started to mesh and meet and now.. we are ever so happy.. My friends like him, his friends like me, and our families (so far) mesh too.
Things that take time are that much more special. I'm glad people finally get why I stayed around and why he was that important to me and now... they see I am important to him as well.
back to this week:
The boys were in NJ for two weeks with the family , I couldn't go this year .. I'm on travel restriction it was hard but it was fun too. While I was sick the whole time I moved a lot of my stuff into Joe's and now we are pretty much 100% living together. I was at the house last night for the first time in a while and back to the apartment tonight. It's no more fighting or awkwardness I think both of us were just scared out of our minds and now we are just... floating.. literally... When I went to pick the boys up at the airport Joe and the other kidlets came (his kids) and made little signs for welcome home and then we grabbed some dinner watched a movie ALL of us and the kids were quiet and laughing at the movie. Joe and I were tired and laughing at the movie but we had a full dinner and movie as a family for the first time with no fights from the kids, no overly bad episodes, a lot less stress. Things finally are gel-ing and we looked at one another and just smiled. That smile between two people that says... hey.. I guess we really made the right decision.. I love you... and I do I love all of my beautiful big family to pieces...
And while it annoys me that a lot of our friends keep poking fun we are going to need a bus to get our family all around, or a caravan or any of that stuff, sometimes it does really get on my nerves. Who are you to talk about my family like it's a joke.. it's not. I'm lucky to have found so much love in such little square foot of my home. You could be so lucky so stuff it! I am ever more excited for the baby to be here and have our family be complete.
That is my update.. As of today I'm 24 weeks pregnant, ever more in love.. though the past month or so has been hard with all the coming clean when we started to date and a while afterward.. but it was what we needed to finally put the past to the past, grow. and love more than ever.
I hope you are all well and enjoying/loving life.
