Tuesday (santasevil666) wrote, @ 2004-01-28 17:22:00

Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	Devotchkas- Sorry.

in need to get outta here...
well the fucking deed is done i guess.
i thought be and him were already broken up.
im just really slow i guess, he didnt want to be a pussy about it and so he waited after for me in person.
i didnt no that he was waiting for me so me sarah m and kortney were hanging out after skewl with brad and all of them. then someone came up to me and told me he was waiting there. well i got really fucking confused about that so i walked up to him and heres our convo:
"what r u doing here? i though we broke up and stuff..."
"i didnt want to be a pussy about it so i came to see u and tell u in person"
"uhh okie" ::note im trying as hard as i fucking can NOT to look at him because i no if i do then ill see him and no what the fuck im gonna be missing::
"i dont want to be a bad boyfriend and not be here for u and have u be everyday like 'o hes not here, o hes not here' so yea"
"okie. i understand"
then he put his arm on my shoulder and said
"thats y u were always rad. were still buds rite?"
and of course i said yea.
i wantd to get outta there as soon as i fucking could so me and sarah m walked to del taco ::there was no where else to go.::
i didnt wanna cry cause ive already cried about it ya no?
well i did cry and it was funny cause me and sarah were the only ones in del taco and shes hugging me and im cry.
what a sight to see huh?

i no me and him have been broken up for what? one hour or something,
i miss him......so fucking bad......
anyone who says to u, its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all is full of shit cause id rather not have loved anyone at all and not felt this way ever.
i dont want to feel this way again and i dont think im gonna be so gulible as to fall for someone so deep.
i no he wants me to be happy and shit and i understand y he broke up with me.
it just hurts.
a lot.
and
im not gonna let anyone make me feal this "heart broken" or whatever u kall it again.
i dont kare who it is.
im not falling again.

	(Anonymous) 2004-01-28 21:10 (link)
	Kristen, I'm so sorry about you and isac I know theres nothing i can say to make you feel better but ilove you soo mucha nd i'm soo sorry and i'll always here to talk just call me and tell me to call you and i willcause i have long distance now... well ilove yousoo much... -Jessica* (Reply to this) (Thread)

	vokittievo 2004-01-28 23:06 (link)
	tuesday, i know you don't want to talk to me or see me but i just want to let you know (even if you don't beleive me) i'm here for you. you don't just have leni and sarah m. when ever you need someone to talk to and leni and sarah are buisy, you can always call me if you want. i'm really sorry -sarah (Reply to this) (Thread)

	santasevil666 2004-01-29 00:09 (link)
	yea, thanks i guess, u no u were in the rong and now im not just gonna forgive u with a simple im sorry. just, stop talking to me for a while and ill kall u and tell u how i really fucking feal cause, just saying sorry doesnt make it better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vokittievo 2004-01-29 19:26 (link)
	well what the fuck am i suposed to do then? crawl on my hands and knees and ask for forgivness? theres nothing i can do about the way i acted. i know that i was in the wrong. but punishing JUST me when leni also knew and didn't want me to tell you is kinda fucked too. think about it. talk to ya in a week (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

santasevil666 2004-01-29 21:28 (link)

im not JUST pissed of u U sarah, yea i am mad at leni but shes the one that didnt tell RANDOM PEOPLE. no im not fukcing expecting u to get on ur hands and knees, i just need some fucking time to get together what im gonna say to u cause uve fucked me over more than once. i have fucking thought about it but leni's was told by isaac becuase there like brother and sister, she told u to get advice, yea thats still fucked and im not fucking stupid sarah so before u get pissed off at ME y dont u fucking realize what the fuck kinda position im in and take a god damm look in the mirror cause this time im not gonna apologise to u. no fucking way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vokittievo 2004-01-30 00:40 (link)
	i didn't just tell random people. i told sarah m cus i was all worried and i didn't know what to do either. and i told kat cus shes my friend and i wanted advise from her too. knowing what was about to happen and how it would affect you affected me too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)