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::cries:: I think I need to talk to Benji
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:27 AM]: Hey Billiers
blow for billy [11:27 AM]: Hey Sam.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:27 AM]: What have you been up too?
blow for billy [11:28 AM]: Not much.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:28 AM]: Have you talked to either of them?
blow for billy [11:28 AM]: Nope.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:30 AM]: ::sighs:: Im getting impatient....and I have been pretty patient
blow for billy [11:31 AM]: Yeah -sighs with her- I'm just bored ... but itching to get divorced.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:31 AM]: Im sorry about that Billiers
blow for billy [11:31 AM]: It's no big deal.
blow for billy [11:32 AM]: I have a plan.
blow for billy [11:32 AM]: [brb]
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:32 AM]: (ok)
blow for billy [11:40 AM]: basically, i'm going to sit him down and show him the papers, and not be all mushy and teary. just keep a poker face. but i'll point to the signature line and be like, "alright benj, you sign right underneath the paragraph that says you don't love me at all anymore and that you're denying ever having loved me and that you're revolking your vows to me."
blow for billy [11:41 AM]: and then he'll start to cry and tell me he loves me and boom. i win.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:41 AM]: ::nods:: Thats a pretty good plan
blow for billy [11:41 AM]: it'll work, too. i know it.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:43 AM]: ::sighs:: Do you think Benji's happy?
blow for billy [11:43 AM]: no.
blow for billy [11:43 AM]: i can tell when he's not, and i know he isn't.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:45 AM]: I mean if he is happy...then let him be right?
blow for billy [11:45 AM]: -narrows his eyes- he's too pussy to divorce me.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:45 AM]: ::laughs softly:: Probably...but I mean...blah nevermind
blow for billy [11:46 AM]: oh i know what you mean -glares-
blow for billy [11:46 AM]: don't think you know him better than i do.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:47 AM]: Dont get all pissy at me Billy...Im just sayin if you love him as much as you say he does and if he's really happy then let him be
blow for billy [11:47 AM]: i can't let him be -snaps- we have to get divorced, we don't have a choice.
blow for billy [11:48 AM]: i'm not going to let him prance off with tim while i'm still legally married to him. that's letting him walk all over me again.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:48 AM]: ::nods:: Well i know that! I'm just saying if your plan does fall through...what the hell are you going to do?
blow for billy [11:49 AM]: then we'll be divorced -shrugs- no big fucking deal.
blow for billy [11:49 AM]: -chuckles- you ... you think i'd take him back?
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:49 AM]: ::nods:: You always do
blow for billy [11:49 AM]: no ... my plan was that i get him at his weakest and kick him while he's down ...
blow for billy [11:49 AM]: and then you know what i'll do? when benji's out of my way?
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:50 AM]: What?
blow for billy [11:50 AM]: oh come on -sneers- you know.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:50 AM]: ::shakes head:: No.. :;laughs softly:: I dont
blow for billy [11:50 AM]: -leans back in his chair, folding his hands on his chest and smirking- i'm going to find someone ... -waves a hand in the air- new.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:51 AM]: New?
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:51 AM]: As in...somebody that is not Benji?
blow for billy [11:51 AM]: well ... technically he is benji but ... yeah ... not really ... it's the whole genetic thing -nods-
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:52 AM]: ::looks down:: What are you trying to say Billy
blow for billy [11:52 AM]: i'm not trying anymore ... it's out.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:53 AM]: So what? Your going to take Joel away from me?
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:53 AM]: Is that what your trying to say Billy?
blow for billy [11:54 AM]: -claps his hands to his chest- oh nooo sam ... i could never do that ...
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:54 AM]: :starts to tear up:: Why are you being like this Billy?
blow for billy [11:55 AM]: -chews on his lip- hmm ... maybe because i'm at rock bottom and in order to get back on top, i need to step on people.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:56 AM]: God Billy...fuck you! I thought you were my friend. Now your just trying to demolish my happiness?
blow for billy [11:57 AM]: oh not just yours! tim and benji's too!
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:57 AM]: I cant believe you...how can you be so fucking selfish?
blow for billy [11:57 AM]: -shrugs- every man for himself.
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:58 AM]: ::shakes head:: How could you do this to me? To Joel? He's happy with me Billy
blow for billy [11:59 AM]: -narrows his eyes again- you honestly think he's going to leave you for me?
XxRockerBabe13xX [11:59 AM]: ::shrugs:: I dont know what to think anymore...with you like this...your always the person I can talk to...now your just a fucking asshole
blow for billy [12:00 PM]: i'd prefer son of a bitch.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:00 PM]: Why are you doing this...to me?
blow for billy [12:01 PM]: you wanna know why sam?
blow for billy [12:01 PM]: becuase you told benji about me and joel ... you didn't let me explain it to him before you just shot it at him, and that's why he left me.
blow for billy [12:01 PM]: you ruined my marriage.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:02 PM]: ::shakes head:: No...I didnt! Benji told me everything ::starts to cry:: Thats not the only reason he left you
blow for billy [12:02 PM]: -shakes his head- no ... you did.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:03 PM]: ::glares:: If thats what you wanna think Billy...then you can think that...but bother Benji and I know that thats not true...I think you know too but you just dont have the guts to say it
blow for billy [12:03 PM]: -smirks- i have more balls than you think i do, sam ... i'd like to see you, or anyone else for that matter, go through the shit i did and wind up like i did.
blow for billy [12:04 PM]: i'm a lot stronger than you think i am.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:04 PM]: ::nods:: Face it Billy...maybe you just didnt make him as happy as Tim does
blow for billy [12:05 PM]: are you honestly going up against me?
blow for billy [12:05 PM]: what compells you to make me mad?
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:05 PM]: Im just staring the obvious
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:05 PM]: stating*
blow for billy [12:05 PM]: no ... you're pissing me off.
blow for billy [12:05 PM]: everyone knows not to piss me off, sam -chuckles- i'd stop.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:07 PM]: ::shakes head:: Billy...you just need to face the facts...Im sorry if im pissing you off but I cant help but be a little pissed off too! I mean you just told me you were tryng to steal my boyfriend away from me!
blow for billy [12:08 PM]: -rae- you don't know what i've done in the past, do you? you weren't here for my fight with benji.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:09 PM]: I dont know anything about your past...nor do I care...I just am shocked by the way you can turn so easy...I dont understand you Billy
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:10 PM]: How can you actually hurt so many people
blow for billy [12:10 PM]: then you don't care that i shot him.
blow for billy [12:10 PM]: because me made me mad, sam ... because he pissed me off just like you're doing right now. get away from me.
blow for billy [12:10 PM]: for your own good.
blow for billy [12:11 PM]: i would hate to fuck joel after your funeral ... that would just be a bit low.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:11 PM]: ::cries:: I never thought it would be possible...but I hate you Billy
blow for billy [12:11 PM]: -shrugs-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:14 PM]: You like to see people hurt dont you Billy? Does it give you some sort of pleasure?
blow for billy [12:14 PM]: -nods- i think so.
blow for billy [12:14 PM]: i'm also a masochist myself.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:15 PM]: ::shakes head:: Shut up Billy...I have listened to you groan and bitch about how much you love Billy from day one...if you love him as much as you say you do..or did...then let him be happy...and if you love Joel as much as you say you do right now...the dont mess up our relationship just because you wanna fuck him
blow for billy [12:16 PM]: -narrows his eyes a little- now i'm pissed. get out for your own good.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:17 PM]: Thats because you know its true Billy...I never fucking did anything to hurt you! How can you be this way towards me? You were my best friend.....how could you Billy?
blow for billy [12:17 PM]: it's not hard to say things.
blow for billy [12:18 PM]: i mean ... i told benji he was worse than his father. that was easy enough to say.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:18 PM]: ::glares:: How culd you say that to him? To anybody
blow for billy [12:19 PM]: blow for billy: it's not hard to say things.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:19 PM]: Still! He's your husbend!
blow for billy [12:19 PM]: he wasn't at the time ... and he doesn't love me.
blow for billy [12:19 PM]: he never had.
blow for billy [12:19 PM]: *has
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:19 PM]: You have no respect for anybody do you?
blow for billy [12:20 PM]: i have no respect for things like him.
blow for billy [12:20 PM]: he doesn't deserve me, my love, my friendship, my trust, my repect or a second of my time.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:22 PM]: Maybe thats because your a fucking psycho path!
blow for billy [12:22 PM]: uh ... yeah.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:22 PM]: I still dont understand...how could you do this to Joel!
blow for billy [12:23 PM]: because benji ripped out my heart and stabbed it repeatedly until i no longer had one.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:23 PM]: So because of Benji's actions...your punishing Joel as well?
blow for billy [12:24 PM]: no ... i'm not punishing joel. i never did shit to joel.
blow for billy [12:24 PM]: he was the one that crawled into bed with me ... he was the one that told me he wanted to be in love with me.
blow for billy [12:24 PM]: you wanna see those logs?
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:24 PM]: Yes I do
blow for billy [12:26 PM]: blow for billy (2:34:54 AM): i know you aren't in love with me and that's that.
twin2joel (2:35:16 AM): ...if it would make you happy..i'm putting an effort into it
blow for billy (2:35:58 AM): ... i don't want you to try and fall in love with me.
twin2joel (2:36:27 AM): but i want to try
twin2joel (2:36:37 AM): i'm trying really...-starts to cry agian- hard
twin2joel (2:36:42 AM): -swallows-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:27 PM]: ::cries::
blow for billy [12:27 PM]: -runs his tongue over his teeth-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:27 PM]: ::cries again:: So I guess were even then Billy
blow for billy [12:27 PM]: i guess we are.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:28 PM]: ::looks down:: Im leaving Joel then
blow for billy [12:28 PM]: i won't move in ... -sighs-
blow for billy [12:28 PM]: if he wants to be with me ... he can come ... but i'm not going to go for him.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:29 PM]: ::cries again:: He lied to me! He told me he didnt love you like that...he told me I was the only person
blow for billy [12:29 PM]: -looks away-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:30 PM]: He hurt me...he told me he would never hurt me
blow for billy [12:30 PM]: welcome to the club.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:32 PM]: Im leaving him...I cant do that...I cant watch him love me then turn around and love somebody else when Im not there
blow for billy [12:32 PM]: -frowns- then you're doing what i couldn't.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:33 PM]: ::sobs:: I love him so much Billy
blow for billy [12:33 PM]: i loved benji a whole fuckload.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:34 PM]: But it's not like your bestfriend took him away from you
blow for billy [12:34 PM]: torry was my best friend at one point.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:35 PM]: ::cries:: You were the one to hook Joel and I up...now your the one to break us up
blow for billy [12:35 PM]: twin2joel (2:47:19 AM): but..you can't help who you fall for ya know
twin2joel (2:47:26 AM): -nudges billy and grins-
blow for billy [12:35 PM]: -shrugs-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:36 PM]: ::sobs:: How can he do this to me
blow for billy [12:36 PM]: i think it runs in their family.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:37 PM]: ::shakes head:: Im not gonna stand here and say that you made him go to sleep with you...because you didnt
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:38 PM]: He wanted to do that on his own...this hurts so much Billy...how could you...you knew I was head over heels in love with Joel...I guess my theory was right.
blow for billy [12:38 PM]: i couldn't keep it in anymore ... i'm sorry.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:38 PM]: ::shakes head:: I know your not sorry Billy
blow for billy [12:39 PM]: -chews on his lip- you're right.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:39 PM]: You wanted this to happen...and it did
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:39 PM]: Congrats...you ruined somebodys happiness
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:39 PM]: and 18 years old girls happiness
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:39 PM]: an*
blow for billy [12:40 PM]: an 18 year old girl that never had any buisness with a 24 year old in the first place.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:40 PM]: :;glares:: He loves me Billy
blow for billy [12:40 PM]: -rae- scroll up.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:41 PM]: It never said he wasnt in love with me
blow for billy [12:41 PM]: i know.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:41 PM]: How can you be so cruel to somebody who has been so nice to you?
blow for billy [12:42 PM]: -shrugs-
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:43 PM]: ::fakes a smile:: I hope your happy Billy
blow for billy [12:44 PM]: no ... i'm actually not.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:44 PM]: ::snorts while wiping her eyes:: How could you not be
blow for billy [12:44 PM]: i'm all alone?
blow for billy [12:44 PM]: yeah.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:45 PM]: ::sniffles:: You deserve to be all alone for huring so many people
blow for billy [12:45 PM]: no ... no that's benji sweetheart.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:46 PM]: Your in the same catagory too Billy
blow for billy [12:46 PM]: i'm hardly as bad as he is.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:46 PM]: ::snorts:: I find that hard to believe
blow for billy [12:47 PM]: well see ... i haven't killed anyone.
blow for billy [12:47 PM]: i also havn't driven anyone to kill anyone else.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:49 PM]: ::shakes head:: You dont have to do that to be in the same catagory...you just have to crush people's loves and step on them to get what you want...well congrats...you succeeded that
blow for billy [12:50 PM]: -blinks and shrugs- am i ... supposed to be emo or something about that?
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:50 PM]: You dont even feel bad for what your doing?
blow for billy [12:51 PM]: acutally, see ... i do, but no one believes me when i say that ... so i may as well just not bother saying it at all.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:52 PM]: I dont know if I should blieve you or not
blow for billy [12:52 PM]: i've always told you things straight up ... i didn't hide anything about that night from you ... except for what he said, because i didn't want to hurt you.
blow for billy [12:52 PM]: but you had a right to know.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:53 PM]: If you didnt want to hurt me then you wouldnt have...nevermind...im leaving him...thats it
blow for billy [12:53 PM]: that's too bad.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:53 PM]: How is that too bad?
blow for billy [12:53 PM]: nevermind.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:54 PM]: Billy...you cant say anything that will hurt me anymore then leaving him..just tell me damnit
blow for billy [12:54 PM]: -glares- i'm not trying to protect you!
blow for billy [12:54 PM]: i don't feel the need to protect you from anything ... i don't care if i hurt you anymore.
I thought about it...I dont think I can leave Joel. Now I know how Billy never left Benji...I love Joel with all my heart. I really need to talk to Benji...I already talked to Joel...he wasn't himself...something was different...BENJI COME HOME NOW DAMNIT!
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:58 PM]: How could you
twin2joel [12:58 PM]: how could i what?
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:58 PM]: You know exactly what I mean
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:59 PM]: You and Billy...
twin2joel [12:59 PM]: what?!?! i didn't do anything...what did you "hear:
twin2joel [12:59 PM]: ?
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:59 PM]: ]: blow for billy (2:34:54 AM): i know you aren't in love with me and that's that.
twin2joel (2:35:16 AM): ...if it would make you happy..i'm putting an effort into it
blow for billy (2:35:58 AM): ... i don't want you to try and fall in love with me.
twin2joel (2:36:27 AM): but i want to try
twin2joel (2:36:37 AM): i'm trying really...-starts to cry agian- hard
twin2joel (2:36:42 AM): -swallows-
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:00 PM]: ::cries::
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:01 PM]: That hurts Joel...how could you
twin2joel [1:01 PM]: .... oh don't throw it in my face when you fucking kissed seb
twin2joel [1:01 PM]: !
twin2joel [1:01 PM]: so we are even now i guess!
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:02 PM]: ::is shocked:: So what? You used Billy?
twin2joel [1:02 PM]: i used billy?
twin2joel [1:02 PM]: how?
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:02 PM]: ::shakes head:: Is this even the Joel I use to talk to
twin2joel [1:03 PM]: -glares- no b/c the joel you used to talk to wasn't pissed as hell
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:03 PM]: I told you I was sorry for kissing Seb...I was drunk.
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:03 PM]: ::cries harder:: I love you Joel
twin2joel [1:03 PM]: well i'm sorry for whatever i did about billy
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:04 PM]: ::looks down:: I'm leaving you Joel
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:05 PM]: blow for billy [12:11 PM]: i would hate to fuck joel after your funeral ... that would just be a bit low.
twin2joel [1:06 PM]: fien by me
twin2joel [1:06 PM]: fine by me
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:06 PM]: Wait
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:07 PM]: So you telling me you loved me was all a lie?
twin2joel [1:08 PM]: no
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:08 PM]: ::sighs:: I just really need to talk to you about this Joel
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:08 PM]: I mean...do you love Billy or what?
twin2joel [1:09 PM]: no
twin2joel [1:09 PM]: no
twin2joel [1:09 PM]: no
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:09 PM]: ::cries:: Then do you love me? ::looks down::
twin2joel [1:09 PM]: ...yeah
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:10 PM]: I love you so much Joel...this just really hurts...I guess you felt the same way too
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:12 PM]: I dont wanna leave you...::sniffles::
twin2joel [1:12 PM]: well you seem like you do
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:13 PM]: Im just pissed off right now because Billy was saying all this shit
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:13 PM]: Im sorry for getting mad at you Joel...you didnt do anything
twin2joel [1:13 PM]: i know....but that doesn't seem to matter to anyone
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:14 PM]: ::sniffles:: I missed you ::smiles weakly at Joel:: lets not talk about this right now ok?
twin2joel [1:15 PM]: well...-shakes head- whatever -glares at empty tv screen
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:15 PM]: ::sighs:: Please tell me whats wrong
twin2joel [1:15 PM]: you and billy
twin2joel [1:15 PM]: -cries tear-
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:15 PM]: What about me and Billy?
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:15 PM]: ::walks over to Joel::
twin2joel [1:16 PM]: you broke up with me
twin2joel [1:16 PM]: and billy showed all of his logs to everyone
twin2joel [1:16 PM]: :(
twin2joel [1:16 PM]: i was betrayed
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:16 PM]: I dont wanna break up with you
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:16 PM]: You are the perfect guy Joel ::starts to cry again::
twin2joel [1:17 PM]: ...
twin2joel [1:17 PM]: i just updated
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:18 PM]: ::wipes away tears:: I love you so much Joel...I never thought something so little would hurt so much
twin2joel [1:19 PM]: ...yeah...-closes eyes and tries to ignore the hot tears streaming down cheeks0
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:19 PM]: ::hugs Joel tightly:: I'm sorry weirdo...I really wanna be with you
twin2joel [1:19 PM]: sure you do
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:20 PM]: You dont belive me?
twin2joel [1:20 PM]: yeah i do
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:21 PM]: ::smiles weakly then brushes his tears away:: I love you
twin2joel [1:21 PM]: i love you too
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:21 PM]: ::starts to tear up again:: Nothing will ever change that....you know that right?
twin2joel [1:21 PM]: right....!
twin2joel [1:22 PM]: i gotta go
twin2joel [1:22 PM]: :) cya later
twin2joel [1:22 PM]: -kisses cheek-
twin2joel [1:22 PM]: bye
XxRockerBabe13xX [1:22 PM]: ::smiles weakly:: Alright...bye
Blah! This is confusing...I need to talk to Benji...or Brit...or Tina!
~*Sam*~
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