|Current music:||Saving Amy Brantley Gilbert|
Please Save Me
You would think at this age
I would at least have my whole life planned out
...but unfortunately I don't
I once thought I was going to marry a boy named Tyler Wellman
But he decided to turn my fairy tale into a nightmare
Its been eight months
And my life is still a mess since you left me
I cry almost every night
But some nights I try to act like you aren't on my mind
I drink to forget
and I know they say you shouldn't do that
but my heart is in pieces and I just want it to be whole again
I can't let anyone in because I'm so scared of being let down
or maybe its just the fact that its not you
I just want to sit down with you
And tell you everything that's been bothering me
like we used to do every night on the phone
You were my best friend for six years and my lover for four...
Why did you have to leave...
I'm lost without you by my side, can't you see that
I died when you left
And I'm trying to live without you but its impossible
You've moved on...
And I'm still living in the memories like a fool
How are you doing it?
How are you waking up every morning without me
How are you acting like everything's fine
When I'm sitting here wishing you were with me
I still sleep on your side of the bed
I've been sleeping there since you left
And I can't stand to move over to my side
I've lost my mind since you left
...gone crazy, lost all my marbles..
How could you do this to me
You were the one that was always supposed to be there
and I was always supposed to be there for you.
Fix this please..
Erase all these tears that I've cried
What did I do to deserve all this pain?
One day I will be fine, it's just not today
or tomorrow...or anytime in the near future
You look happy in your new life
And I do only wish you happiness in your life
and with your new girlfriend
I already told you she looks like a sweetheart
And I bet I will hear in a year or so that you will be engaged
and when that day comes... I will completely lose my whole self.
Brooke tries to tell me there's still hope..
Just the other day you told her that 'you had to move on'
And I don't know why you would say such a thing
You know I still love you ...
Why would you 'have' to move on...
I just want to go back...when we were happy
actually I want to go back a year from now.
When we were arguing at Ethan's Rodeo
And I was screaming about not being married to you
and you screamed back that we would be marry by now if I wouldn't be so stubborn
...and argue with you all the time
Why the hell didn't I listen then
I watched my best friend get married this weekend
And I knew that should have been me and you
but instead its not
The only way I get to marry you is in my dreams....
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