Danielle Nicole (ruthlessone20) wrote, @ 2012-02-15 23:15:00

The Sound Of Rain....
I absolutely adore the saying 'love will never fail'
why you may ask..
because it's all just a lie
Love will fail every time.
That's why there are such things as divorces, cheating, and hate in this world.

I might agree if that quote was used in such things as friendships..
Because friendships never fail, well not mine anyways.
Blah, this is not what I want to think about.
The only thing that is ever on my mind is love, marriage, and when the hell will it happen to me
It happens all around me.
At my work, on facebook..my friends, ex's.
Why can't I achieve love in my life?
What am I doing wrong and what are they doing exactly right
I, sometimes, think its karma kicking my ass for everything that I have done in the past
But really karma? Don't you think you have gone a little too far to punish me thiiis much?
Don't you think you have let enough good guys walk into my life and leave, slamming the door behind them?

I saw a quote today that perfectly fit me...
"I feel like putting a sign on my forehead that says if you have no plans on staying in my life then please don't even introduce yourself" .. I need that sign.
I tell myself your reading this, enjoying every last bit because maybe you were just lying when you said you had no feelings for me
haha crazy me talking again, but I'm perfectly fine with that..
I just crave love... everything about it
Knowing that when someone wakes up in the morning that you ARE the first thing they think of.
Somehow in someway that's magical to me.
I just want to cross someones mind a time or two..
Once when they wake up
...maybe a little during the day
and definitely when they lay down their head.
Is that too much to ask?
Or am I too horrible of a person for anyone to love?
aah.. I don't exactly know why I would be....
I haven't killed anyone.. I've never mistreated anyone
I love animals and I don't abuse them.
What sins have I really created to deserve this?
I admit to telling a fib every now and then but who on this earth doesn't?

Just please tell me if you're listening....