..I swear I must be dreaming.. (roxychica2447) wrote, @ 2003-07-09 00:07:00

sooo :::confused:::
i'm so confused right now it's not even funny. well apparently adam and his g/f broke up....becuz that day he IMed me right outta no where.. it made me cry lol. i seriously was fuckin cryin. i was afraid at first.. i had jus put my away message up and it was fairly long, cus well.. yes i am the queen of long away messages, but yea i got brave n scrolled up thinkin he had IMed me to bitch me out, but he said Jennifa.. so i wa slike good.. good.. we can talk. so we talked and he ended up callen me that nite.. so we talked n shit n he started with this i want you to be able to trust me so when we get back 2gether itll be easy n shit like that. n im thinkin helloo i wanna trust you but i cant.. i dont think ill be the same becuz he hurt me too much u kno? like hes lied to me so many times and i just love him with everything i have.... i want us to be perfect cus i kno we could be if he'd just let us. he was the biggest sweetie on the phonet hat night and it made me miss hjim all over... so yeah

i'm assuming he's told his now ex g/f that he loved her... which pisses me off cus i can't ever believe em when he tellsm e.. if het old her and i KNOW he didnt love her what the fuck u kno? i really do love him... it jus' hurts. um..
yeah

so im like wait, what am i trusting why should i trust u? n hes like well 2start, trust that ill talk to u 2morrow.
so im like ok..

the next day comes and ten pm rolls around he hadnt called and i knew he wouldnt but like he didnt go online so i called him, 12 am comes and hes still not online nor did he call, and i knew he wouldnt. i coudnt help but think that he was stoned or some shit n jus said shit cus he felt like it and forgot,. or what... so he calls back eventually and was like "you called?" and i was like yea.. and hes like so what do u want.. n im like arite ive had it.. bla so he went to do xercises n sed hed call back but never did.

today i IMed him to c what the fuck was goin on n im like ahhh thunder! holdm e! and hes like i couldnt even do it.. im like what? and hes like u said for me to hold u n i said i couldnt even do it. im like ohh i thought you meant like, even if i was there uic ouldnt.. and hes like thats what i meant! :) and soo either he has a gf, or theyre back 2gether and im soo hurt..

i love him more than anything i miss him soo fuckin much you don't even know..

-peace.

pleaseeee godddddd send my babi back where he fuckin belongs!!!! hes my babe...ONLY my babe..