|Current mood:|| lonely|
|Current music:||the thump thump in my chest...|
i look at myself in the mirror but i just see a simple girl
a girl who's not seen as simple but complicated.
and how people see me makes me believe more and more
that maybe i am complicated.
i stare into my soft brown eyes
they've never lost their innocent look
and i start to weep.
i weep for everything in my life
for all that's happened
good and bad
happy and sad
i weep and weep
tears streak both cheeks
gliding down unto my neck
down to the middle of my chest
my nose turns red
my eyes filled with intensity
i just don't understand- i speak to myself in thought and wonder... hope...
but fail b/c i begin to weep again
i feel many a time i go unnoticed
even though i turn heads every which way i go.
i feel alone even though i have the love and support of my family
i feel unloved b/c i have not felt that lasting touch of a man who lovingly caresses your hand
or gently brushes his lips against mine
a man that i can make myself vulnerable to
i hope and hope and sometimes
i feel it is not enough
not enough for me to go on
i struggle to live
is a new beginning
yet it feels like the end of me
my body and mind are one
so when one thing frustrates the other reacts
but mostly it is stress
stress that causes instant tension
tension that fills my body and mind
tension that has not found a way to escape me.
what can i do?
what is it that can help me?
i have not found it
i'm still in search
and ever so hopeful....
are my waterfalls
my cascades of sadness
it never fails
i feel lost
and all i have left are these tears
filled with tears
how beautifully shaped and brown they are
these glistening eyes
this heart so strong
yet so weak
blood flowing and flowing
but blood without that drive
for that beautiful thing called love...
this mind so complicated
but only needing one simple thing
such a simple solution
but complicated to grasp in an instant
an instant i feel may not be lived
i need to heal
i need time
time for love....
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