RiOTCHiLD (riotchild) wrote, @ 2003-10-14 12:24:00

Current mood:	listless
Current music:	"I Swear"-Spice Girls

"I'm Sorry I can't Be Perfect..."-Simple Plan
So, Maria and I 'made up' if you can call it that. I mean, I'm not excatly sure where ALy and I right now...She gave me a tampon today, so does that mean we are friends?

I read the review on my journal...They hit the nail on the head about some things.... I walways say that I don't want anyone to pity me...But in the same breath I talk about how bad my life is.

Why do I always wanna play myself up to be this wonderful girl who is uber strong and doesn't need anyone, when the truth is...I do. I want to be strong, but it is so hard sometimes.

Maria and and Aly say that I always it want ito be about me. It's true, I always feel the need to get attention from my friends and such, so I act out...I try to be as outragous as possible. Part of this is my personality and how I was raised, but another part of it is me screaming 'LOOK! LOOK! AT ME! LIKE ME! TEL ME IM COOL!' why do I need that? Deep inside I know I am worht-while, but I have the hardest time beliving hat other people feel the same.

I'm sorry, this was a lame update.

~^RiOTS 'N SELF-LOATHING^~
~*T*~

fabricoflife 2003-10-15 11:12 (link)

awr. taylor. believe me when i say that i will alawys be here for you. i know some people say it and then turn around when you need them most (like maria and aly did) or say that and end up using you. it's quite an overused phrase, but i dont know how else to put it. you're my twin, doll, and twins dont seperate over pity-fights and high school drama. and i know we've talked about how the people who say that they're there for you are the last people you're probably going to come to.. but hey, just a reminder, i'm here. not saying that you don't come to me enough, i love when you do, but i'm just giving you a reminder. i love you taylor. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	riotchild 2003-10-15 19:26 (link)
	thank you so much :) Id trust you with my life (and my alter-ego). It means so much to me that you care and are here for me, expesially when I need someone the most. TWINS FOR LIFE! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)