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random rambling
Well you see.. Today was wierd. It was one of those days that you didnt like, and would love to eliminate from your life.
Well it started out by walking in and getting smuggled with my daily snuggly from Alex. Then I talk to him for a while and move on ward, and then all of the sudden I see, well jee golly Whore and TARA! Woot! That made me happy. I passed out on Whore because I didnt feel to good. Then the bell rang, I went upstairs with Whore, went into the bathroom because I didnt want to go to Math, and I saw Alex! : D That also made me happy. She was putting on makeup. Hehe. So I talked to her for a bit then went to Math. Math was stupid, then went to english. I got to see Hawley and Ethan. By 2nd period I felt so sick I thought I was going to die, but Ethan made me feel a wee bit better with his jokes and smiles. ( : Then went to free and saw uhh so many people. I got really sick and ran into the bathroom. Threw up. Yeah I know I'm cool. Walked out. And when I was walking back to where everyone was I saw the most depressing looking person in my life, they made me want to cry. I walked into the bathroom went into a stall, and cried. God It was so pathetic. Then that ended, I went onto my way up to latin. I saw Tara Noelley and Emo and Alex and Nicole and Zach and Weee other people!! Then chit chatted and went to latin with Emo. Hmm yeah. Twas Fun I guess. ::sneezes:: Then I went to lunch. I dont know. I just really wish I could know what people were thinking at times.
Lunch. God oh mighty, lunch was depressing me. I was with Manda, Zach, White, Nicolee, and Smoker. I was in between Alex and Zach. I kept looking at Zach wondering what he was thinking. Then I looked over his shoulder and saw Alexa and a bunch of other people. I hate knowing people who have so much pain inside them and they just hide it with a smile. Its what I do, I shouldnt but I do, but I hate it when they people I love so much hide their pain. They just smile and pretend everythings okay. I looked at certian people and saw the pain in their eyes, god what I wouldnt give to know what they were thinking or feeling. Like in Latin, this girl was staring at the floor just tapping her pen. I couldnt help but look at her. Her eyes pierced my skin with pain, she was about to just lose it and start crying. God. I wished I knew the pain she felt and what she was thinking. I wish I knew everyones pain and take it away, cure it, make them all better.
Hmmf. Taras birthday is on Saturday and Mandas is on Friday. I hope Tara was a great birthday because she doesnt seem to excited about it. Well I hope all my little fun stuff I have planned will make her birthday a good one. I think Tara was mad at me today or upset with me. She didnt seem happy. ) : Yet I was too selfish and went to class without asking her what was wrong because I didnt feel good. Sorry for that tara. ) +. I love you Tara. I hope you arent mad at me.
Wow. Random amazement. There are bubbles in my water. And its not bubbly water.
Okay. I am going to finish talking to all these people that are online that I love you. Okay. Thank you.
XoXo
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 lettersxtoxyou2
2003-12-02 20:39
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no love, i am not mad at you...i'm sorry i wasn't aware you weren't feeling good, i was just in a horrible mood this morning, i almost had to leave modern euro because i was on the verge of tears the whole class and i dunno why, i'll go into more detail in my own journal, but i love you and feel better!
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(Anonymous)
2003-12-02 21:24
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awe beth! everyone is sick lately. you clear the world
from unhappiness and ill clear the world from sickness.
feel better!
dont worry about me! im alright. its pathetic how many
guys ive liked but you see i always get over them. no
matter how depressed i might get for a while, i shall be
perky and energetic again soon. life goes onnnnnnnn.
i still have that pen cap from lunch. ill cherish it! hehe.
so what does bethany want for christmas. i had an idea
for you but then it went ::poof:: hm. i must give this
deep thought. something to do with the used. of course.
cause they are just the most awesome band. and thats
that. led zepplin is awesome too. heh i LOVE your new
setup. shall forever be loved by me.
ted is still my second favoritest person in the world. he
plays the bass... sooo yes he is deffinitly awesome too.
and yes zach dagistino is a cool kid too. we used to be
friends in like 5th 6th and 7th grade when we were oh
so young but now... we dont talk. oh well hes still a nice
person. oh and alex white is deffinitly a cool kid too. we
are doing basketball reffing together. it shall be amusing.
i havent played basketball in years so heh she will have
to explain to the poor third graders why they suck and
do not know the rules. oh well. i must go. i leave you
now with a nice long entry to make you feel better. get
well very very soon bethany! i loveeee you a lot! <33
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