|Current music:||BLACK OR WHITE-MICHAEL JACKSON|
I saw you kicking dirt in my eyes.
Music helps thoughts to flow so much better than silence.
School was alright. I am not as nervous about my audition that I used to be, but I am still freaking out kind of. I think it will be alright though. I don't care what people think about what I wear. I don't care if they glare at me for looking preppy. If they talk to me they will find out that I am a fucking good laugh. So all those "hard core depressed emo" fucks can just bide their time and make fun of me. At least I will be at the center of their world. And I don't care that you don't want to be seen with me. Whatever. Judgements based on clothing is hella ignorant. Its feeble minded, and brainless, and pretty self absorbed.
Have you ever talked to someone, and the whole time they are talking to themself? And everything the relates to them and nobody else?? Yeah. I have. Recently. And it was so frustrating. Because as soon as I had finished listening to everything they had to say, I started talking about something that was happening in my life and guess what I got? A turn of the head and I could tell that *Patty lets call her, was listening to me at all. She totally disregarded me. I was like, "okay, I actually have something to say about me too." It was really frustrating. I wish I could tell this person how I feel about being ignored but I can't. I hate it when Patty gets all self absorbed. Its totally selfish. Everything that she EVER talks about it something that relates to HER. Never listens to ANYONE else. God. Its kind of hurtful. She should stop being hurtful. and Selfish. The world does not revolve around her. Whatever. I guess I wil just have to confide in other people. Not her definatley not her. EVER. Some friends, talk to you, some friends you talk to them, and other friends talk with you instead of making the world about them and only them. Thats what gets me man. Fuck those kind of people.
I have black or white on like as loud as it can go. It is so awsome. I love this fucking song. I wonder if Michael will write me back. I wrote him a letter. It will probably just sit in a box or in a file and never get opened. Oh well.
I wrote on napkins at Starbucks yesterday. I hope someone finds them.
I LOVE MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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