sav (r0mant1c_r3t4rd) wrote, @ 2004-02-26 01:01:00

it doesn't take long but it happens, &it did. so fuck that, i`m done.

the last little while has been fucked up, i miss some people but that's okay. i always miss people i just need to learn how to deal with it. yup. so anyways, today during my 1st spare i got to sleep in, and in 2nd i was allowed to sit in my regular spot, but bob wasnt there! woo, creative writing was fun, haha i thought ashley named her characters after their postal codes. funny stuff. i got to spend all of lunch with darrell, we walked around - and it was fun even though we didnt do much, i always have fun with him, lent is so dumb though. then i had a spare in fourth! me and amber sat in the caf. lame. fifth was gay...56% on math test, IM GONNA FAIL....ARGH.

slept all evening, get to go to darrellls this weekend again to watch movies.

im pissed off at myself, and always will be, i cant stop writing. i wrote like....6 pages in my journal last night.

random things, i wanna delete but save somewhere...

[2WEEKS!] &she whispers - "sweet snapshots can't replace - the things that time erased." says:
haha aw thank you.
savannah_is_kooler_than_pot_roast@yourface.com says:
haha no no,t hanky tou!

haha best msn name ever.


lance talk with amanda...

sAv. - "..a brown haired boy with hazel eyes, with love so big it can't fit inside." says:
i was so into feeling feelings..before i met lance, i wanted to feel everything and write it down, i wanted to remember it forever, and then i met lance and i stopped writing, and i thought happiness would bring me more writing, but it brought me nothing, and it wasnt happiness, i just felt numb all those months, day after day - i was happy the first two weeks, then the reminder of the six months all i wanted to do was want it to go back, and after i finally had the courage to dump him, [i was too scared too.] and after some time, i slowly started to feel like myself again.
sAv. - "..a brown haired boy with hazel eyes, with love so big it can't fit inside." says:
i started feeling things like real happiness, and pain and regret, and it felt like he put a bunch of layers of fakeness all over me, and they were slowly peeling off with each day
sAv. - "..a brown haired boy with hazel eyes, with love so big it can't fit inside." says:
til i could really feel things again, thats when i started falling in love with everything all over again i think, notice stupid things, and getting excited by seeing my breath outside or getting a bruise, cause i knew i was real and i didnt want to lose that again
sAv. - "..a brown haired boy with hazel eyes, with love so big it can't fit inside." says:
does that make sense?

YAY DARRELL.

Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
YAY!!!! happy 2 week anniversary of not smoking!!!!
[2WEEKS!] &she whispers - "sweet snapshots can't replace - the things that time erased." says:
welll thanks for telling me i could do it.
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
lol i never realy told you you could do it, did i?
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
i was more of just pushing you to do it
[2WEEKS!] &she whispers - "sweet snapshots can't replace - the things that time erased." says:
yah
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
bekuz i knew you could
[2WEEKS!] &she whispers - "sweet snapshots can't replace - the things that time erased." says:
well either way thanks
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
no problem
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
thanks for quitting, kuz u smoking was the only thing that really bothered me about you
[2WEEKS!] &she whispers - "sweet snapshots can't replace - the things that time erased." says:
well yay!
Man made booze. God made pot. God is perfect. Man is not. (not that i believe in god or anything) says:
its excellent, im so proud of you, bekuz i know yer not going to go back to smoking now that you've got no actual physical addiction